I am Not Ok but It's All Going to be Alright

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So I am not alright. I have come to that fact last night. I have so figured out that I'll keep it to myself. Not that it doesn't matter...I think it's just that there's so much going on in general. Dad came home yesterday and he's doing well. He just doesn't have much strength in his legs right now. I feel like we go through this after every hospital visit. He was told to keep his legs up prior to the heart surgery and then of course you're in a hospital bed for two days so yeah we have to get used to using the legs again. Not to mention without starting the lymphodema treatments again just yet, both legs are so swollen so it's hard to walk. He took a fall last night and while mom flipped out I had to be the voice of reason. He was fine, I had no reason to worry, his legs just gave out. I was the one that was saying it was ok. I was the one that had to remind him baby steps. Get him on the hassock first then the transport chair. Little movements at a time and at his speed. Sleep eluded me very well after that. Today I had to get two friends sales together. Kristie bought detergent from me and Jerry bought a book. I had to clear out part of my hatchback because of course I still have the shop inventory in there. Thankfully my hubby helped get everything down and then Jerry helped me get everything in EMS. I also have to get brownies for the Station's Open House tomorrow. We also still have to go up today to clean the engine, clean the bay out and do check off's. Tomorrow is the actual open house and I'm nervous if anyone will actually show up. I hope so because I don't want it to be pointless. Then Sunday is the monthly department meeting and after that I leave for the fire academy for a week. Right now all I really want to do is break down but I can't. There is just no possible way. I'm still worried about keeping my shop up and running. I finished Wild Love last night and was quite happy with it. Compared to what I've been reading it was tame. I need to get on and update the reading list. If I did that today would you want me to list it from book one or start where I left off? I was also thinking of making posts of each book as well. Not sure about it yet. I tend to forget sometimes. What is everyone else doing today?