The End of the Week...Could be Better

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So it's Friday and I know that I wasn't on the computer yesterday. I was off work and my husband was off work and my mom was still in Nashville so nothing went the way it usually does. We made breakfast, mom called about dad. I went up and gave gram her pills but she couldn't swallow the antibiotic so she spit it out. Came home, worked on some decals for the shop, got gram's new prescriptions. Mom got home and we talked a bit. Mom went up to see gram with peanut butter cookies...then called me not five minutes later. It's the call you never want to get for a sight you never want to see. The sight of your family member passed away. Right where you left them. Gram has been spiraling pretty fast the past few days. When they gave her the stage four diagnosis, they said two to three months. All in all, from diagnosis to death, it's barely been a month. She went the way she wanted to. In her house, in her chair, no one to see her pass and not in mom's arms. Hospice was very efficient and very friendly. Everything went as smooth as we could have hoped. Now it's what's next. Now it's one step in front of the other. Now it's grieving in our own ways. I came to work today at EMS. All I would have done was moped around. Here I can feel productive...at least a little. Dad is doing ok. He's breezing through his breathing trials and getting better. We're pretty sure that he'll be home next month. The doctors go oh I'm not sure about that and we can't promise that but we're in good spirits. My husband and I are looking into bankruptcy. We just have so much debt and we can't crawl out from it. Now that gram's house is empty...no I don't say that lightly...we were thinking about moving in. With our credit and financial state right now though we just can't. I figure we have about a year to figure it out. Maybe less but I'd be willing to bet on a year. So I hit the computer and I take the shifts and I promote my shop. My husband works the hours and tries to help with the yard up keep. I'll do just about anything right now. I worked on my puzzle a bit last night until a friend called in to check on me. Then I was on the phone for a bit with her. We go to the funeral parlor tonight with everything to make the plans and all. She'll be cremated and we're getting a double urn so she can be with pop. It feels like the world should stop for a minute but it doesn't. My world stopped but reality just keeps going. What is your happy today? I could use some happy.