Monday Greetings

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It's Monday on the week of Christmas. We dug our presents yesterday and cried. There were presents mom had that she had picked out with dad. Happy memories but still really rough. I really should point out that I know that everyone has their hardships over the holidays. Some are new going through things and some go through it every year and struggle. I get it. I may not know your specific struggle and I know I don't know how you feel but this post, the ones I make are just me. I'm not trying to make light of anyone's pain or struggles and I'm not comparing. In reality you can't compare pain because even if you lost the same person in your lives or are going through anxiety, depression any of that no one goes through it the same. How I deal with things, I know isn't the way most deal with it. I can't be still because if I'm still right now I'll fall apart and probably wouldn't get back up. As much as I can't wait to get up to Maryland and see everyone, I also dread it. That will be one week of nothing. There won't be the next step. There won't be places I absolutely have to be at or people that need to be seen. Obviously I will be doing both but it's not the same. I will have to sit and actually feel and that terrifies me right now. We've been focused on gram's house and we haven't even started going through dad's yet. We did sell the lift though and to someone who needed it so I was happy for that. We also discussed it and summer of next year gram's house will go in our name. It will be hard but I have faith in us. By then the bankruptcy shouldn't have anything to say about it. The only bill that really worries me is the taxes but I think it's split into two payments so I think we'll be good. I work today for Chris and tomorrow so that puts a little money in our pocket. We'll help give out meals on Christmas Eve. I'm still reading The Seven Rings by Nora Roberts but the goal is to have it finished before the New Year. I finished a wreath last night that is more St Paddy's day than Christmas but that's ok at least it's done. I have my yarn sports packed up with the exception of the baby blanket I'm working on right now. It's coming along great and I'm really happy with my first try. I'm still working on selling things because after the first of the year, I was talked into switching which room of the house my shop is in. So after the first of the year that will be happening and the pick up rules will change to be more professional. We leave for Maryland on Friday and I feel not so ready lol. I'll get there though. What is everyone else up to today?