cancer has ruined my life ""do you understand""

@kkerix (403)
United States
April 2, 2007 5:53pm CST
i was a strong 40 year old professional tree trimer.i had a business of my own since 1990 it was very prosperous. then the cancer, then the treatment, then the side effects of radiation. i am sick hurting, open wounds, on and on four years now. i have lost everything. my wife left two months into it. i have been on morphine four years now. they the doctors say i need transplant surgery now, i think i am dying. dose anyone know what i am going through????
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@Savvynlady (3685)
• United States
13 Apr 07
I won't sit here and say yes; but I will say that at this point, you need some support right now. first of all, I am truly sorry you have had to endure this on your own; I lost a sister and now an aunt most recently to cancer, and to me it just hurts. Kkerix, let me say this; no matter what has happened, you are NOT alone. God is there for you; I don't know if your a religious man or not, but do know that he is there for you. you only have to ask. you will be in mine though. I wish you peace with this.
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• United States
3 Apr 07
I can't even begin to imagine the pain you're feeling. It sounds like you are battling this alone. You shouldn't be. Please know that there is a God who does care. I don't know if you believe in him or not, but I know that if you call on him, he'll answer.
@scorpius (1793)
• India
3 Apr 07
i am sorry but i cannot truy imagine what you are going through at the moment.i cannot even relate to it all i can say is that i am truly sorry that you are going through all of this alone.either way i have given some links below and i think that you may be able to get some support from them.good luck! http://www.macmillan.org.uk/Home.aspx http://www.cancerlinksusa.com/support/ http://www.cancerbackup.org.uk/Home
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@kkerix (403)
• United States
6 Apr 07
thank you much i am going to check out the links now. thank you, robert
@mimpi1911 (25475)
• India
3 Apr 07
...here's cart full of roses for you.
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@mimpi1911 (25475)
• India
3 Apr 07
roses for you - roses are beautiful
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• Israel
3 Apr 07
Hey kkerix. I am sorry to read your sad story. Cancer is indeed horrible, and I can't even imagin how it is to have it. I help people who have cancer to get over it all the time, and it is never easy. There's a presentation in California that might do you good - might even set your life on a better course. Would you like to check it out?
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@kkerix (403)
• United States
3 Apr 07
yes i would but i can't travel. if i could watch it online would be great. i am scared about my flight back to the south. i have to leave this month before it is impossible to make the flight, real problem is that it is my rear end they burnt off with that crazy particle excel orator,lol. i can't sit down, have to be on my side. yes please let me know
@healwell (1268)
• Ahmedabad, India
3 Apr 07
Well, I can suggest few things regarding your pain and recent condition you have mentioned! Do you h ave faith in life? do you believe in miracles? Which are created by humans? Do you want to create miracle and from this moment? If so then try to heal yourself from within: Say to yourself that what ever is happening with your body is now stopping and all is becoming normal andi am going to recover completely! If there is a good healer/s and available to you then aproach such healers to provide you healing energy so it will help you more to recover! And if you know any Reiki teacher or healer try to get healing from that person and if you have courrage andpatience and faith then learn Reiki to heal yourself with using it! Will you do this? Any one like to add in this recomendation?
• United States
3 Apr 07
i dont know you that good but i know how someone feels to have cancer and loose everything i know it must be hard on you and i am so sorry to heat that you have cancer i hope the best works out for you,god bless you.
• Canada
3 Apr 07
I am so sorry to hear all that you have been going through . Honestly I can't imagine the pain you are in as I have never experienced this and pray to God that I never do as I have heard it is extremely painful . I think it was horrible to hear that your wife left you shortly after finding out you had this horrible disease . Cancer seems to be striking so many people these days and there have been members of our family that have come down with this dreadful disease . I wish you the very best and hope they will be able to find a cure to help you soon so that you will not have to endure all that you have been going through . Best of luck !!
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@pearl23 (243)
• United States
3 Apr 07
I have worked around sickness I would say you are going through hell. They have home health aids. Sorry you have cancer it's a horrible disease. I became familiar with cancer in the 70's when working in a nursing home.
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• India
3 Apr 07
cancer is one of the incureable disease of all.it is caused by malignant cells.cancer can be detected by biopsy,gastroscopy or bile test.after the age of 50 years it spreads more quickly.there are some treatments like chemotherapy,laser beam treatment,use of cobalt 60 radio isotope to destroy the malignant cells.But these treatments can bring cure only in the initial stage.if u r at the last stage then remember that u cannot be cured.But u have to live by ur mental strength.If u wnt to increase ur confident then u must watch ANAND by hrisikesh mukherjee.I am sure that this film can increase ur confident with 100% gurantee.BEST OF LUCK TO U.DONT GET nERVOUS.
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• United States
3 Apr 07
I had cervical cancer and before that I had the best relationship, which has now ended after 15 years, not sure if it was all to blame on the cancer but before we were perfect together then i spent so much time have procedures done and feeling horrible and I guess it was just to much of a hassle for him. He did stay till the end but less then a year later he was gone.
@mimpi1911 (25475)
• India
3 Apr 07
tha's sad but i feel much better when i see that God has stuffed in immense courage and humor in ppl like you. you are certainly a brave heart. all i can say is that donot let your spirit beat you, keep the self-esteem going no matter what. you can make new and new friends online and just let out your heart to them. i am sure you can reinvent yourself. and when there is an option of transplant why lose heart, just give it a go. our improved medical science has a lot to offer, just trust it. good luck and KUDOS.
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• Canada
3 Apr 07
I don't know who you are and I cannot even begin to imagine your pain, but I can sympathize with you and tell you that I care. Even as a stranger I care. I had a friend die of Cancer and seeing what he went through just to try and add a little extra time to his life was horrific. I'm sorry you're going through this. It doesn't seem fair. I'm praying for you, and I asked my angels to keep a watch over you during this terrible time.
@vanities (11401)
• Davao, Philippines
3 Apr 07
im truly sad about what happen to you and i know that youre suffering inside and outside...yeah it does ruined your life...but havent you think why then?? its not yet the end of the world yet..and think that youre not alone on this kind of sickness you have to attend some support group so that you can relate each other about the illness..and somehow lighten the burden..
@Rosepetal (352)
• United States
3 Apr 07
I don't know who you are, and I can't even imagine your pain, but I feel for you in your sorrow. I'm not a religious person, but I do feel there is a God. You may think that what I am about to tell you is just a bandaide, but I have found that reading the Bible gives comfort. No, I'm not a Jehovah's Witness, but I did open myself up to them and studied with them. Before that, I never read the Bible. Reading it has changed my life for the better. If you are open to it, consult with some Jehovah's Witnesses. They're warm and caring people who may be able to help you in some way. I wish you good health and many blessings.