have u hated yourself?

Philippines
August 4, 2007 11:28pm CST
i came to point where im talking to myself why and why everything seems not going my way.. insanely as it seems, yes iv been recently doing a silent talk to myself.. there are things that i cant really tell anyone about how im feeling.. because they got their probs to so id just have to let it out myself.. im trying to figure out why im like this.. i mean why im being such a person like who i am now.. what are my faults, flaws, the tings i can do, how far can i handle things, my strength, weaknesses.. everything.. im trying to know who i really am.. and why all this not good stuffs happen.. i duno why god gave me this personality i have now.. =( im clumsy, im such a wimp, impulsive thinker, childish, immature, im 20 yet i feel like im still the lil rascal who pulls up a lever without knowing what the lever is for.. i know iv accomplished things but generally im still dumb.. i dunno what life will i be getting after months now.. i wish god would give me strength and more wisdom.. i wish im not me, how i wish im like you guys who ave greater abilities in life.. to all the persons iv hurt, im sorry.. my stupidity gives my lil ragged life an upper hand most of the times..
15 responses
@heartsick (832)
• Philippines
5 Aug 07
you dont have to feel sad of what you are right now, because that makes you different from us.. just try to see stuff that you can do that others can't... you are like that for a reason.. just look on the bright side of being you.. you should love yourself.. that's all.. live life to the fullest! stay happy!
• Philippines
6 Aug 07
yea yea everyone would always say "live life to the fullest".. but tell me, how are you goin to live life at its fullest when you dont know how.. i mean, seeing the bright side isnt really enough.. there are so many bitter sh^&ts that shoud be get over off with.. but, the question will always fall on, "how"..
• Philippines
7 Aug 07
you know the answer.. :)
• Singapore
5 Aug 07
Get a grip of yourself... anyone sure has his/her own bad time... don't always try to be perfect just be you... and give yourself a break from all the pressure that u make by yourself!
• Philippines
8 Aug 07
i am.. and still trying.. there are times i just wanted to get the sh#$%t out of me and ran off from my probz and the like.. but still this life is still my life.. if only we could replace it if we dont like it, i would. but too bad we cant.. so maybe i just have to get things over with and try not to pressure myself with such things.. thanks for the wise words.. good day..
@sharksfin (1091)
• Philippines
5 Aug 07
Awww...I can feel you. I guess, I have felt this way before several times. The personality we have, it's like restricting us from using our full potential and it's frustrating. But, you know what? It'll come in time. Do not focus so much on what you can't do. Rather, appreciate yourself for what you can do. It'll help a lot. To feel good about yourself, you need to appreciate yourself even for the littlest things you've accomplished. Do not force yourself to achieve something no matter how capable you are. Because if you fail, you will only become more discouraged. Try not to put the blame on yourself each time you experience failure. Sometimes, we fail not because we are incapable. It's just that whatever that is, it is not meant for us. And do not forget that there are other factors that causes failure. Now, if your failures are because you are less confident, you have to start believing in yourself. Try hard to stay positive. Always think ..."I can."
• Philippines
6 Aug 07
im a hard headed wimp, its not that im that dumb who knows nothing at all. what i meant to say is that, yes iv been trying to be an optimistic person which is something i really wanted to do, but everything just f*(cked.. no matter how good i am with such things, failure really hunts me..
@raijin (10345)
• Philippines
5 Aug 07
I was like you, hated myself to the point that I don't want to talk to other people for a long time. I call it a "self-hybernation" period, for me to gather myself altogether and to be ready to face the world again.. I believe this comes to our lives, for us to get a hold of our selves. To realize the mistakes that we keep on doing all throughout our lives, to change it and hopefully, be a better person. People will go by us, adopt our personality and learn to understand simply our actions. I hope that you learn from all this things that are happening in your life right now, be strong and use them as a source of your strength!;)
• Philippines
6 Aug 07
thanks for all the encouragements everyone.. i appreciate and im thankful for all the good things youve told me.. youve been so nice and patient with me..
@haven17 (48)
• Philippines
5 Aug 07
we're on the same track--sometimes i can't help but hate myself..esp when a lot of hindrances coming to my life and i can't figure out what's going on--its really frustrating when u can't go on bcz of resentment,bitterness--i hate myself for being so weak. im easily affected. im beginning to think that i was born to become a looser.
• Philippines
6 Aug 07
yes i know how you feel.. i also get afected with everything that easily.. i feel so weak thinking and wishing im not me.,.
@wotfpatty (2065)
• United States
5 Aug 07
You know, I look at this from a whole other perspective because I have a son who is your age and I wonder if he thinks about things the way you do. And if he feels like he isn't good enough or whatever. What I see in him is a fantastic, smart, funny, handsome, creative, amazing person. I bet you that other people see similar traits in you. We are our own worst critics. I have often wondered why I was handed the life and personality traits I have been. I am anxious and I am weak in ways. I am not as adventurous as I want to be and I lack energy. I could list a huge list of my flaws. BUT...I am who I am and those flaws make me, me. I have some good stuff going for me too, just as you do. The fact that you care enough to internally discuss yourself and look at your life and try to figure out who you are shows you have a lot going for you. So many people just don't care. You care. That is a trait that is admirable. Being young at heart? Good for you! I'll help you pull up the lever. I do it all the time and I am more than twice your age. I am still a kid. I think we ALL are. There is no magic age when we suddenly feel "grown up". If there is, I missed it. You said you accomplished things. Then blew it off with "but I'm still dumb." Why do that? Look at your accomplishments as stepping stones to bigger and better things. Man, the world is at your feet and you can be anything you want. I would give anything to go back and redo some things I did and change a few things. We all have flaws, faults, shortcomings, and inner dialog that tells us how dumb we are and how we're not good enough. The answer? Accept yourself for who and what you are. Cherish your accomplishments, reach for the stars, and love, not hate, yourself. It all sounds tough but it really isn't. You just have to change that negative thinking and remember, you're just starting your journey. Around the bend, there may be great things waiting. How exciting is that? Hugs.
• Philippines
6 Aug 07
well that was a really nice thought youve given me! i was astonished and all these stuffs youve told me is really something and i mean SOMETHING thatve made me change my point of views.. maybe your son's really greatful to have u as his mom., i wish every person would be as intelligible and understanding as you are.. my mind was enlighten, but i think the follow through is the problem.. i dunno.. now im feeling fear again.. i guess i just have to always put in mind all the good things you've said so as to remember how youve helped me get enlightened.. it doesnt just sound tough, but it is indeed.. im hoping for considerations and understanding. thanks for droppin by and yes youve changed my understanding a lot.. i owe you one. godbless. thanks
• United States
6 Aug 07
I think all of us at a time have hated our selves. It's part of the growing process. Don't be so hard on yourself sugar.
@nangel78 (1454)
• United States
5 Aug 07
I completely understand where you are at. I have been there myself and still hurt from stuff that I did where I was like what the hell was I thinking? Give yourself plenty of time to get through it. Don't let it bottle up either. That is not good for you. Your friends will be there no matter what you are going through.
• Kottayam, India
5 Aug 07
How we came in to this world and what we can do is also taken in to consideration.If you hate yourself, in my opinion our individuality is lost. In that case we are not suitable for this world.
@faby2k (62)
• Jamaica
6 Aug 07
I have never hated myself and i dont anyone should. Sometimes people make choices that could affect them and that is the reason why people sometimes think or just hate themselves.
• India
6 Aug 07
Hi!Well it is good to introspect yourself but let it not affect your BELIEFS & FEELINGS.Do your BEST to change for the BETTER but do not give room to negative feelings...If you think you can..you can, If you think you can't,then you MUST!! Follow these sort of positive principles & see the changes in your LIFE.Everybody is bound to have ISSUES of different nature,it is all on how we take it & balance for LIFE has to move on....Make the BEST of what you HAVE,GET & YOU CAN!!Have faith in GOD & put in your BEST,learn from your mistakes & experiences..LEARNING is FUN & EXCITING.Life would never be the same again!! GOD BLESS!! www.creatingcolourfulfuture.com
@Pose123 (21635)
• Canada
5 Aug 07
Hi aikastacruz, First of all you are not stupid,or any of those other things. You are a human being, a child of the universe. Start loving yourself,we have to love ourselves before we can love another. I bet you could think of a lot of good things to say about yourself if you tried. Smile and start thinking about the good person that you truly are. Hugs.
@Pose123 (21635)
• Canada
5 Aug 07
Hi aikastacruz,first of all you are not stupid or any of those other things you say. You are a human being, a child of the universe. I bet you could think of a lot of good things to say about yourself too. Why not think of the wonerful person that you truly are. Hugs.
@besthope44 (12123)
• India
12 Oct 10
Most time, its my work..with ontime deliveries and work loads. I try to divert mind on music and i feel better. We need to manage depression, as it is part of life in busy world. But if we concentrate, we can manage it. I does it through my yoga, listening music and going out on vacation.
@ayris77 (1301)
• Malaysia
5 Aug 07
Sometime i hate myself for doing wrong decision in life .for example is to miss somebody who doesn't love me anymore!