Do you ever want to isolate yourself?

I know where your coming from susieq, I find myself pulling away a lot lately, I have been getting depressed a lot and when I do feel this way I am not the sort of person to go and talke to others about it, I just lock myself away until I feel better, I think I feel a little let down with people these days, I have come to the conclusion it is a very selfish world.

You are not alone. Please don't feel like you might be. I have been wanting to isolate myself for a really long time. I've been dealing with untreated anxiety disorder and depression for many years. I have recently been prescribed Effexor and I'm on week 8 or 9 and I am feeling great. No more heart racing and outbursts of crying for unusual reasons. I have never felt better. But, it does take about 4-6 weeks to work to its full potential. I do want to isolate myself every now and then but it's normal. Sometimes alone time is what we need, and it's good for us. I really wish you and your husband the best of luck.

I definitely know where you're coming from. And, you admitted to being a bit depressed. I get that way often. It's easy when there are a lot of things going on. I have 2 kids diagnosed on the autism spectrum, my father-in-law lives w/us (he has leukemia), and we just bought a house that needs A LOT of work. There's so much going on, I just want to stay in bed. But, there's a lot I have to push myself through - like keeping up w/the kids, still trying to keep their schedules (and church and its activities). I haven't been online nearly as much either. I definitely think that having a sick husband has got to be very difficult; I cannot even imagine. But, I will keep you in my prayers.

I would suggest counseling, Susieq. That is something most people shy away from, and I'm sure you know that as a retired counseler. Everything you mentioned sounded like me a few years ago, and I did get counseling, although I do still struggle. It helped and I have been living a better life. I'm not dealing with an ill husband, and you are. I cannot begin to grasp the fear, sadness, and maybe a bit of anger you are feeling. Talking to a friend is great, but I do hope you seriously consider a counselor. I know you made a difference in other people's lives during your time as a counselor, it is time someone returned the favor. I love you girl, and I'll be praying for you. -Amber

Honey you need some help.. Get to your doctor.. Make yourself go Sweets.. Just remember you have alot of us out here that love you and worry about you so please if not for your sake for ours..get to a doctor! xoxoxoxoxo

Hi SusieQ, I think it would help to talk to someone about your feelings, someone professional, or just someone whos not biased to your situation. You told the people here at myLot, thats a start! I have been out of work for over a year now, and I find that I isolate myself too. I really have to psych myself up to even go out to the store and stuff. Which really bothers me because Im such a social butterfly! I love people and big crowds, but I just feel down all the time. I dont think Im severly depressed, mainly because Ive been there and I dont feel like I did then, but Im withdrawling from things I normally like to do. Im mostly on this PC doing myLot, and before I know it, the whole day is gone. Ive gotten myself in this habit and its hard to break. Sounds like youve got yourself into a habit that is hard to break too. I hope you can pull yourself out of it. Ive had a sick partner before and I know how it does really pull you down. I thought I was going to lose my mind before they got well again, it was months at a time he would get sick. Try not missing too much Church, I think that would really help you! Bay Lay Gray xx

i am sorry about your husband's situation. but it's nice to know that you are always there for him. i don't think you are really depressed about being isolated from your friends and the outside world. but you are rather sad about what your husband is going through. i only hope that he will get better and that you two will be able to spend much time together. there are times when i just want to isolate myself from the outside world. i have friends. but i feel like i am a lot happier when at home alone or just with my boyfriend. my boyfriend does not demand me to tie myself at home. i had been like this since i was a kid. i am a loner but i am not lonely. being at home makes me feel safe and happy. anne