:( i don't know anymore

January 5, 2008 11:02am CST
i feel so sad today, i don't know what to do! I love my partner very much, but don't know if i can carry it on. There is so much going on, and all the time i feel like i put him in last place. I know he loves me too, but he's younger than me, i don't want to hold him back anymore, i've given lots of thought to ending us.
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@mensab (4206)
• Philippines
5 Jan 08
oh, i could sense the difficulty you're going through right now. it is really difficult. however, if there is no point of moving forward, don't dwell too much on searching for the point of being together. most likely you will end up pursuing your own tail. you will miss the joy of having a relationship if you settle for what you have which causes you to feel this way. i think it is not about age. it is more of what you want for this relationship.
5 Jan 08
i do love him, just not sure in which sense, what if i end it and i'm wrong? he's going to afganistan in april for a six month tour. What if i'm trying to switch down? i don't know!! how do i find out how i feel, without hurting him or myself?
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• United States
5 Jan 08
maybe u just think u r feeling like this because he is leaving i dont know if he is in the military but if he is there is the chance he may not come back u may just be trying to protect ur heart i think u should just enjoy being together while u can
6 Jan 08
i have thought if this may be the case, he's in the army. I was ok when he went to iraq, but then at that point we hadn't been together long. He also seems to want to see me upset, bringing up that he might not come home, this may have been his last christmas etc. It doesn't appear that he's scared though i'm sure he is. Last night he didn't come home when he said he would. I text him and his excuse was, i might die this year!! I can't do these games. I love him, but this behaviour will make me back off. Like you said, i'm protecting myself?
• India
6 Jan 08
Dear u love Your dear and You are telling that you are loving much more and might be more than youer self so i wish it will be remain but only thing in the world is permenent is love only!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
@SageMother (2277)
• United States
5 Jan 08
Relationships' energies ebb and flow, just like other earthly entities. It is unreasonable to expect the same level of attention in all areas, all the time. If your partner seems content then there is no reason for you to end the relationship, unless you are so uncomfortable that YOU are not content! If you feel the need to spend more time focused on the relationship the make the time. Schedule an evening for just the two of you on a regular basis. You have the makings of a great New Year's resolution here!
@dania_elm (422)
• United States
5 Jan 08
well thats just silly u want to break his heart because u think u r holding back? have u asked him his opinion on this? im sure he realized that u have alot going on and who cares if he is younger as long as he is 18.....i think that u should sit down and tell him how u feel u may be surprised at what he has to say u cant always put ur sig. other first as long as u put him first as often as u can and u love eachother thats what matters