"This Suffering Is Killing My Soul"

United States
February 27, 2008 10:10pm CST
"This Suffering Is Killing My Soul" You cannot understand the vitality Of the insanity that I envelope The discomfort has such a finality That it seeks to destroy my very essence Everything I hold... Is shattered with the force of frustration It is a silent menace... The poison of an undetectable presence That converts me into an image of wickedness Shame is all that my vision views Shame over stupid insipid actions I become the image of Adam The Father of Idiocy The image, I am, of my father Not biological one... Nor the glorious one... But of the stupid one.. Adam the Idiot His curse is found in my DNA But it has mutated into an imbalance That even the common man does not understand The man of futile activity and total lack of reason My Wish would be that life would be a dream.. Because the stabbing of my soul, With a knife of illogical psychological pain, Becomes a bigger burden every passing day. I am nothing of what I wish I were I am ashamed over being alive I am frustration being spread by an infestation Of a mutilating Chemical Imbalance. ZeN
2 responses
@Hatley (164777)
• Garden Grove, California
28 Feb 08
you have the poets touch great poem but hope you yourself are feeling better now. pain can be so draining I know. I have been there too but cannot put it as beautifully as you just have. thanks for sharing. feel better soon.
• United States
28 Feb 08
This is actually something from the past.. so at the moment.. I do find myself in joy... Thanks for the kind comment, and glad you liked this poem...
@VampAmber (308)
• United States
28 Feb 08
Wow, that was... Amazing. I feel like that sometimes. You were very eloquent about it, unlike me. I wrote a poem called "Chemicals" about the same kind of thing awhile back. *hugs* Feel better, please? Because suffering for art is only good when you can feel better afterwards.
• United States
28 Feb 08
Thank you for your kind comments... and just as sure that their are awful times, there are also many moments of joy... thanks again...