do depressed people just love to suffer?

I have gone thru some depression yet I fail to realise that I am in fact suffering. To say that depressed people just love to suffer is not fair to them. In a depressed state, they may not be aware that they are suffering. He could "appear" happy with company but deep beneath and alone, he is back to his own state of mind. When he is depressed, he hears but cannot listen.

In a way I agree with this, because of personal experience. I was never actually depressed, but a few years ago I had a really tough year. I was sad, lonely and upset 90 percent of the time. My life started to change, and eventually I became happy again. But now when I do get sad, lonely and upset I feel comfort in it. I'm assuming its because I got used to the bad feelings and felt them so often. Its just something I know so well, so therefore, I feel "at home" when I am suffering.

I think suffering has become my middle name. I have depression really bad and can't find meds to help either. I hate the suffering that I am doing every day. I hurt so bad, my back, my knee, my foot, arm spasms, leg spasms. Geez, it never ends for me. I wish I could find happiness again, but everytime I see a sliver of hope, something happens and it crashes down again on me. I try not to be this way, but somedays it is too hard to fight and you just want to give up and you know that you can't if you have children. All of my boys are still at home and I think, well it is there birthday, so this is not a good time or I have to take them to the doctor's office for something. When I do die, I told my kids to have me donated to science and find out what was wrong with my brain.