Suicidal

Sounds like you are miserable. You can fix some of that misery by kicking out your husband, tell your step dad and mother to get out of your life and live their own, or get pack all your bags move out to your own place. There is no reason at all you should be treated like this by your own family. Just make sure you are being a good mother to your child and putting first in your life. You can change things in your life that are making you miserable. It may not be easy but if you want happiness you can find it.

Oh dear I can't imagine how hard it is for you, I feel mega down at times so I keep thinking that tomorrow is another day, there could be something around the next corner and all those things, plus I have made my little house an absolute haven for myself, as I live alone. It must be so hard for you with so much negativity, I try to avoind negativity but you can't really so I don't know what you can do, maybe just try and win your little girl over and live for her I think when a man gets to that stage nothing can be done unfortunately,..you can always come in here to Mylot, you have friends here, I use Mylot a lot when I am down...

nothing I can really do to stop it. I try but I only end up making things worse and no one cares about me. Maybe you can't stop certain things BUT you CAN change how you look at things....for example... My husband told me I was worth less than a cardboard box, Why are you still married to him if he treats you like that, first and foremost....Secondly, ARE YOU? IN YOUR HEART OF HEARTS, DEEP IN YOUR SOUL do YOU honestly believe you are worthless?! If so WHY? (this is hard to do because you HAVE TO shut off the voices of others in your mind) my step dad accuses me of being a terrible mother and tells me i need a baby like i need a bullet in my head, Really?! Are you the primary caregiver to your child? If so, do you take care of that baby (feed, clothe, bath, tend to)? do you LOVE that baby? Are you kind and caring to that baby? AND all things considered do your stepfathers words REALLY hold any water? Here is a man who took on the role of step father and THIS is how he parents?!? TRUST ME...he doesnt have a leg to stand on when it comes to assessing a parent!! and my mother talks crap about me behind my back to my sisters and brothers and her friends and coworkers Ah yes..My mother has been doign that to me my whole life...and even to my husband, MY friends and MY kids...know what my response to ppl like that is? EFF THEM! JEALOUSY WILL GET THEM NOWHERE! and the reality is they are miserable ppl and we all know that misery loves company...(I wonder if your mum and my mum are related LOL) Even my little girl...My husband tells me she didn't do anything to deserve to have to grow up with a mother like me.... again I ask you...why are you still with this man??? Its never enough?? ACCORDING TO WHO? these aholes who treat you like crap?? Let me share with you some VERY wise words a friend told me when I hit my rock bottom the last time.. TAKE YOUR LIFE BACK! feel free to PM if you like...STAY STRONG!!

Huh? Are you sure they said all those bad things about you? If you're sure that they did, why would they say such things? Perhaps you have a bad attitude that you need to change. It's also possible that you're just having paranoid delusions. For that you'll need professional help and medications.

Even with those atrocities in life around, life is still wonderful. We are very lucky to have been given the chance to experience life here in earth. Problems or trials are always there, just to make us stronger and be able to solve any more problem that will come our way in the future. Those things that you experienced are just trials in life. God wants you to be strong. He wants you to learn how to solve problems, and how to deal with difficult situations. Stand up and be strong. Think that there are other thousands or millions of people around the world who are carrying much much heavier load than you have. God doesnt want anyone to surrender. Life must go on. If theres something that you think you must change about yourself for the better, do it. And just do things that you think is right. Good luck and God bless!

I hope that things get better for you, It is hard these days. And when you don't have any positive encouragement, it may seem that life aint worth living. I felt that way years ago, and it took alot to keep me going. I look back and I see that going through those tough times taught me alot. No matter what anyone says, there is always someone who is there for you. Everything happens for a reason, try to find that reason. Take it step at a time, I will be praying for you. You are an important part of this world. You may not know but everything you do affects someone somehow. Take care of yourself and your daughter too. God bless you.

Samanathavv_ your last response was two hours ago. You got some really good advie and I'm sure you can tell eveyone here on mylot wants to help you. I'm just checking in with you to make certain you are feeling better. Please drop someone a line and let us know you're okay. It's hard for someone who has experienced such despondent emotions to forget about you. Please, are you okay?

Samanthavv first thing is to kick a man who tellyou you are worthless to the curb. he is destroying your self image of yourself. he is selfish and mean hearted so take it to the court and divorce the monster. YOu do not need a man who is constantly telling you such awful things. love yourself enough to tell him I am out of here. your little girl does not need to grow up hearing that crap from a mean hearted nab, You also need to talk to your mother and stop her insultstoo. You have got to stand up for yourself,love yourself. tell yourself I am somebody, Iam unique and mean it. sucicide is never the answer. you only hurt the people you love.