i think it enough, still not getting what i wanted to

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I've been in a family that naturally loves music, my dad's a 'kundiman' master, my mom also sings with the beat of the guitar.. my brothers have a band in their high school days, and i happened to be a part of it by being a back-up singer.. i finally had my own band when i reached college, i have been in a 3 group, the first is all alternative-rock we're i happen to be the vocalist, the second would be the all-girls band and i am a guitarist there.. the last group that i have been to is may i say the best of it, where i am the vocalist and at the same time a guitarist, and we've had gigs somewhere in the downtown.. but we've got disbanded, and what really hurts is im forced to stop playing violin, which got my attention since i lay my hand on a violin of a friend..i don't own a violin, and i find it expensive, that's why i'm still frustrated.. my life now goes in my daily routine of office and work, and i really miss going out the stage and make a lot of singing, with my guitar and harmonica.. but i still longing to play a violin.. am i selfish?.. looking at my past, i think i've had enough of what it takes to be in the field of music..and i should be thankful that i've experienced all those things.. still, my longing for violin grows more and more especially when came across the road of someone playing a violin just for fun, how i wish i do that too..am i asking too much?