Have no interest in life

United States
August 23, 2008 7:08pm CST
First let me make it clear I am NOT thinking about suicide. Don't believe in it and think it is a cowards way out or a way to get attension 99% of the time. For some time now I have no interest in anything. The things that I use to enjoy mean nothing to me now. I use to love flowers and gardning, my Koi pond, cooking, reading and many other things. I can't sleep because I have nothing to think pleasant thoughts about to get me to relax. Nothing to look forward to. Everyday is the same. I have no one to talk to so am venting here I guess. I use to fear death but don't now. I can understand why as you get older you can look forward to it. Life can get to be......I don't know, uninteresting I guess. Yes, I know I am depressed but feel I have reason to be through no one's fault but my own I suppose. I don't feel like reaching out to anyone or making friends. Everything seems to take more effort than I feel like making. Probably because of the deprssion I guess. I can't afford to go to a doctor and don't like them or pills either. Never did. Haven't been to a doctor in 30 years or more. My health is fine. I believe I may be in despair if that is possible. I am hoping that just getting it down will help. Really don't expect any answers because I don't think there is any. Thanks for listening anyway.
2 responses
@auntiedis (165)
• United States
24 Aug 08
I am so sorry that you feel this way! Perhaps it's time to find a new hobby or interest to focus on? Try something new? Get out and meet some people with common interests, and perhaps your old interests will be renewed?
• United States
24 Aug 08
Thank you for your response. At this time I just don't want to do anything. That is the problem. But being able to vent and have kind people respond has alredy helped. Thanks again.
• Kuwait
27 Jul 09
You know that you should do something to help you out of your depression but your depression makes you too apathetic to do anything. This is one of the unfortunate ironies about depression. And you are almost certainly depressed, btw. It is far more often characterised by the numbness and apathy you have described than by deep sadness or despair. As someone who has been there, done that, and will have to re-do it throughout my life (bummer, but hey), when your brain chemistry is at this point, you really need to be active against it. Even when you want to just lie in bed; get up. Even when you don't want to exercise; go to the gymn. Want to avoid the world? Put yourself in social situation. Can't feel enthused about anything? Make a list of ANYTHING that brings you some comfort, pleasure or pride in a day and refer back to it. You need interaction, endorphines, stimulation and you WILL get this even if your heart is not in it at first. (There is btw a HUGE catalogue of research of the medical benefits of exercise for treatment of depression, and I am no natural gymn bunny). These are free, self-help strategies you need at a minimum. Seeing a doctor and counsellor would be advantages. Without taking action, things may get worse. Best case scenario- you will coast through life for who knows how long missing out on all the fun you could - and should - have been having along the way. You do have it in you to overcome this - good luck!
@ladym33 (10979)
• United States
30 Aug 08
If you are unable to see a doctor, which you probably should, it could be your diet that is contributing to the depression. You need to think back about what may be causing these feelings. Is there something that happened in your past either recent or long term, that may have caused you to lose your faith in people or in something else. There is a natural thing that is suppossed to help called St. John's Wart, it takes a few weeks to kick in, but is suppossed to be very effective, and helps to release seratonin.