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I have a sad childhood memory to tell you all about.My father was a cruel sadistic man he did many things to hurt and humiliate me over the years.I am remembering one tonight that isn't as bad as some of the things he did but was terrifying to me as a little girl.He would take me to this dirt road in our town late at night,this road only had two houses at the time but it had a very haunting looking cometary on it.The cometary was very old and only had woods around it set back off the road.At night when the moon would light it up a bit it was a very scary place.My father would take me there I was four maybe 5 years old and he would take me there often sometimes he would make me lay on a grave sometimes only stand there.He would hide and throw stones at the grave stones though at the time I can assure you I didn't know it was him throwing rocks at the stones.I would be so petrified I couldn't move.At times he would tell me it was the dead coming to get me for being on their grave at other times he would tell me it was the devil himself coming to get me.I would pee my pants because I was so afraid he would think this was very funny and would laugh at me,sometimes he would have my older brother or sister there to laugh at me as well. Just needed to share this story that is on my mind tonight.I know my father was a sick man but I still to this day can not imagine why he took such pleasure in making me this scared.To this day I fear the devil.We were supposed to be Jehovah witnesses yet at times I was made to do things that were more like devil worship.Go figure,do you have any traumatic childhood experiences to share,I would like to hear rather then feel I am alone in what my father did to me.He wasn't allowed to treat my older brother and sisters like this,only me.My mother says she didn't want me,never planned on having another child with that man,he raped her so she says and along came me,and he wouldn't allow her to abort me.So she says that is why she gave me to him to do what he wanted as long as he left the older kids alone. Jas