Losing A Wonderful Mother
By alyssakenzie
@alyssakenzie (462)
United States
November 28, 2008 8:30pm CST
A little over a year ago I lost my mother after a hard fought battle. I was 23 years old. To this day I have so much trouble talking about her very much and I don't know why. We were very close to each other and I tried to talk to her at least once a day and see her several times a week or more. She was my best friend, the person I told everything, the one to help me no matter what. The love I still have for her is not describable. She meant more than the world to me. I have two daughters of my own and my oldest is five and she asks about my mom a lot and sometimes I have trouble with it and other days we will sit and talk about all the fun times we all shared and how much she loved us all. My mom raised us on her own for most of our lives. She worked as an RN and did her best to raise me and my brother the best she could and she did a great job. I miss her more and more everyday. I know that I will spend the rest of my life trying to make sure that she could be proud of me and living up to my expectations. No one knows how long they will be around.
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@inkeddreams (4)
• United States
30 Nov 08
We lost my father in law in october of last year and my wife still has trouble dealing with the loss. He was my best friend and someone I could always count on. He was an awesome father to his own two girls as well as many of their friends. His other daughter has had a rough time as well. Its never easy to say good bye to someone but remember that though they are gone, they are always around us. All you have to do is look at the people that person impacted and you will always see your mother. For me, everytime I hear a ZZTop song I feel my father in law. His two daughters show me small versions of him everytime I talk to them as his intelligence was passed on to them. I am truely sorry for your loss and hope that it will get easier as time goes on.
@alyssakenzie (462)
• United States
30 Nov 08
Thank you for stopping by and leaving me that comment. It always helps to know that there people out there that know what you are going through and understand it. Thank you so much for your thoughts and I will keep you in mine.
@deedeehall (1144)
• United States
29 Nov 08
sounds like you love your mom so much. just remember she is still with you and your kids she sees every thing you do.she will always be near you.
@busyB4 (874)
• United States
30 Nov 08
Hi alyssa,
I am very sorry to hear about your Mom but you were very lucky to have a great relationship with her and your kids had a cnace to know her also.
It sounds to me like you are still in a grieving process of trying to handle it yourself before you can talk about her without getting upset. That is understandable and each person has to take their loss at their own rate in their own way. I am sure with the holiday season , it becomes more tender again.
God bless you and your girls and that He will help you through this!
@loveyoohbaby (737)
• New Zealand
29 Nov 08
Hey there I know how you fell I just lost my father 2 months ago about this time also at the age of 19.So there for me it will hard and am not going to celebrate my birthday as I do not have my father for the first year of my birthday also a good family friend who shears my birthday which is one week to the day before Christmas then the week after my birthday I also will not be celebrating Christmas as it will also be the first Christmas that I will be celebrating with out my father.
Arohnui Love loveyoohbaby xoxo
@mcat19 (1357)
• United States
30 Nov 08
I lost my mom several years ago. I am much older than you, but it was still hard. It was hardest on my young granddaughter who was 6. She kept wanting to visit her GreatNana and cried for weeks. She had to go to grief counseling. I'm so sorry about your loss. Remember she will always live in your heart and in your memories.
@dodo19 (47082)
• Beaconsfield, Quebec
29 Nov 08
I'm really sorry to hear about your mom. It's always difficult to talk about a lost loved one. But talking about her, like you are now, will make you stronger. That I do believe. I'm not saying that the pain will go away. But it will become easier to talk about her. Although she passed away, she's always going to be with you.
@rebecca7783 (123)
• India
29 Nov 08
hey aly,
even i was only 23 when i lost my mom.. it was the year 2007. is really pathetic to loose a dear and close person like a mother. it still seems that she is around me and close to me. i lost her all of a sudden as she was struck by cancer.
i, my sis, my boyfriend and my dad all tried our best but to no avail.
the doctors gave answer and thus after all struggle finally we lost her.
i still remember those pleasant days with her. i would talk to her for hours and listen to all her advise, comments and feedback. she was my best friend and i still miss her.
God bless her soul and the soul of your mother as well.
@kaka135 (14916)
• Malaysia
29 Nov 08
It's really sad to hear about what happened to your mum. Missing someone really important in your life is really suffering, and definitely she'll always be in your heart, in your mind. I'm sure your mum wants you to be happy always in your life, so just be happy and have a wonderful life. Always have nice days!! ^_^
