The battle of food inside your mind.
April 24, 2009 6:43pm CST
I personally have been suffering from Bulima for aprox 15 years now. I find it so hard to discontinue Mia for long periods of time. I do understand that I do it to not consume the calories that come into my body. I tell myself when I do so, how could you do such a repulsive act? Do you know how many people are in the world staving and here you are stuffing you face then flsushing it all away. I only hope to God my children dont have to go through this horrible mind game. Why is it so hard to except what we look like? My spouse loves me for whom I am why cant I?
24 Apr 09
I also have a struggle with food. Every single emotion I have is tied to food, and I feel the need to eat for absolutely everything. I eat to feel certain emotions and to make other emotions go away. I often feel disgusted with myself when I constantly eat. I have made myself throw up before, but it didn't get very bad, it lasted a short time. As well with me not eating at all. I think alot of people have unhealthy relationships with food, but only some of them are serious. I wish you the best of luck with your problem and hope you can learn to love yourself.
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27 Apr 09
Thank you for your comment. I know many of us(women in general) struggle with some form of eating disorders wether or not we recognize it. Like I tell my spouse why does food taste soooo good, but my underlying feeling is the euphoric sensation I get from eating. Unfortunatley after the whole happy feeling fades away guilt sets in. May you have better luck controling this demon that I have yet to conquer.