OK, Its office I am depressed
By Bytemi
@Bytemi (1553)
United States
August 12, 2009 12:27pm CST
OK, I have to admit to myself now, there is no getting around it. I am depressed. I have been on high doses of steroids for 3 weeks now, I have gained over 20 pounds, I feel big, fat and ugly and it is time that I accept that I am depressed.
I went to lunch today by myself and ended up ordering a Diet Coke, an Order of Pot Stickers and the Roasted Red Pepper and Sausage Penna Pasta and I ate it all! All of it. About half way though the meal I started feeling bad about consuming so much food, but I couldn't stop I just couldn't.
I really hate this, 3 more days on the steroids and then hopefully I will be able to even out my emotions again and return to the normal life.
Have you ever felt that way?
2 responses
@lumenmom (1986)
• United States
12 Aug 09
If I were to tell you what all I have eaten this morning going into this afternoon, your food would seem like a small snack in comparison. I didn't even do diet coke, I did regular coke! I understand when you say you just couldn't stop. That's how I feel and to make it worse my husband and daughter keep getting things to eat, taking a bite or two and leaving the rest in my face where of course I manage to finish it off. I am not on steriods but I am in so much pain everyday and ironically depression medication helps but I have a reaction to all of them so I can't take them. My doctor says that in addition to the pain there's no question that I am depressed. I have no idea what to do but I hope I cna get at least some relief from this pain as a start. I hope things work out well for you once you are off your steroids. There's nothing like being on an emotional rollercoaster!
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@Bytemi (1553)
• United States
12 Aug 09
Yes, that is exactly how I feel. You have no idea how good it feels to know that I am not alone. It was awful sitting in that resturant by myself and feeling all alone.
I too react badly to anti-depressents so I can't take them either. I was just shocked at how overwhelming it was this afternoon and feeling that I couldn't do anything to make it better.
I just want to feel better.
@BART78 (2927)
• Canada
12 May 10
theirs nothing wrong with it, it's one of small side effects of AAS..my suggestion is, before beginning a cycle, especially one containing strong androgens, you must prepare yourself mentally for the fact that you are in all likelihood of going to emotional inbalance or aggression, and consequently take the time to assess the nature of your reactions while using it, controlling yourself during a cycle is simply a matter of maturity, intelligence and discipline, if you find that you are becoming easily irritated, or becoming extremely upset over minor things, the use of androgenic compounds or the dose should be reduced...have this will help...for more insights go to steriodstoday.com and sign-up, i hope this helps you!
