Grieving

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How does one keep going after you lose a loved one? I lost my husband, two months ago, my heart is crushed. I am so lost. I try to fill my time with work, and my pets. I can't concentrate on anything. My children try to keep in touch but they are busy with their own families and jobs. My husband's sons have cut me out entirely. I feel useless, adrift with no direction. The only thing that keeps me from joining my husband is my daughter and her two children. I'm all they have in the area and they need me, otherwise I'd have done myself in shortly after my husband died. The pain of continuing on is so great I don't know how much longer I can bear it. To make it worse, my finances are abysmal. My income is one quarter of what we got when my husband was alive, our home takes nearly a thousand a month to keep the bills paid. I'm too old to hire, no one wants a woman that's been a housewife for 40 years, no experience. I'm not old enough for Social Security. I'm in limbo and in a lot of pain. I really don't want to keep going. I keep telling myself that things will be better, in the future, but that isn't helping me now, at this moment. I am so lonely and filled with pain. How do other widows bear it? My husband was everything to me, my heart, my soul, my best friend, my companion, my partner in life. Now all that is gone.