Still feeling unwell in work

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Yes, you heard it right. I am feeling unwell in the latest office job that I will start on 1st Sept 2010. Somehow I feel lost, bored, worried and unsure before I am starting the work next month. This is due to what happen to me last several years that I worked in many place. People treating me badly and I don't want it to happen again. I also have depression which worries me much that I will fall asleep in the afternoon at 3-4pm. Although I mostly recovered from depression but I still feel a bit of stress in few short times a day. I did not tell my employer about this for the sake of my job. This assistant admin job also requires me to clean the toilet sometimes in a month because they don't want to hire another person to saves the money. I probably want to say no to this job but my mother persuades me many times to tolerate and I can't tolerate anymore since everywhere I worked, people are all cruel to weak people like me. I really want to stand up on my own but I can't find any flexible job that enough to support my living. All are either sales or telemarketing which I do not prefer but end up taking it to the needs of money. I just want to be comfortable. Is it that hard? People in mylot please help me by suggesting ways how to deal with stubborn people who won't listen that cares only for money and please suggest ways to make money other than 9-5 job? Is there any 9-5 job which can earn enough to support my living? I need USD200 every month and I think that's not a lot of money to be make if I want to.