faint hearted person

I think it is but human to feel some doubts. Even if your faith is strong, we will always be tested. And there is no guarantee that we always pass these tests. I think that's why there is a reason for everything. And why we don't get everything we pray for. We just need to keep our faith that it will all work out in the end.

This is quite normal. You are supposed to get angry with the person you love the most. You love God and you have some expectations from him. Sometimes you are in situations that are unfriendly. You ask of help and you don't get it. So you feel a resentment against God. This is okay dear. This only proves that you really do love God. However, mere love is not enough here dear. You need to learn to demand things instead of begging. Don't ask him. Demand from him. He's created you. He should take care of you. You're his children so you have all the right to treat Him like your parent. The relationship must be that intimate dear. It's not weakness at all and you must not feel sorry about it. I don't.