A Loner among millions...

@mr_pearl (5018)
India
November 18, 2011 11:31am CST
Hello dear fellows... I wish to relate something grave... Sometimes, we feel lonely, even if we're with friends, we feel that this company isn't enough. You walk down the road, lonely and see thousands of happy faces... I desire, at such moments, to be able to experience same happiness. I pray, I beg for it... I ask myself,'Why can't I?'... It is terrible to be alone and single, especially if you've been in love for some time. I was in love, God knows and I too wanted to be happy. But the dream ships of mine broke on the sharp rocks of reality, leaving me shattered... Gosh! I want to be happy too... Dear God, I too can be happy.... Pleasw help!
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11 responses
@WakeUpKitty (8694)
• Netherlands
19 Nov 11
Your problem is that you count on others to make you feel happy. You will only get rid of this feeling if you are able to live your life alone. If you are willing to make yourself happy/feel great/pamper yourself every day. If you decide to be happy from now on no matter what. Lonely people are not the kind of people others love to be around with, they are not attractive. You will suck a lot of energy from them, also from a lover if you expect that lover to be the one, to make you feel great. I was there too, years ago. I also know that that I was most lonesome and felt most miserable with people around me, in a relationship. Since I left, are living my own life (hard or not) I am way happier. It's me who decides what to do, how to handle. I like to be alone, do my things and most of all: I never feel lonesome anymore. Not one single minute. And you know what? Now I am suddenlyh very attractive to many people.
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@mr_pearl (5018)
• India
20 Nov 11
Hi Pergammano... Thanks a lot dear buddy!!! I understand these things, you see... The Eggs in one basket thing is quite new to me... Yes, I have always been focused on one thing... And I never have thought of options. She was my life, we had so many plans. Marriage, happiness.. New job or business.. and more happiness.. There was so much to do... Everything is gone!!! Yes, I will try to be happy... I know all of you care so much... You and all my friends here, have been my source of energy for the past few days... I am always glad to express whatever I feel, here on myLot... I must have done something good to have got such good friends... Thank you !!!!
@mr_pearl (5018)
• India
19 Nov 11
Hello Kitty... Thanks a lot! I understand what you say. I'll try to imply it... the way you've put, it sounds like sunshine.. I'll really try to be like what you say... Thank you!!!
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• Canada
20 Nov 11
OMG...WakeUpKitty...you have relayed exactly what I wanted to say to mr_pearl, but much more eloquently than I! I have pondered for days, since the inception of this discussion, how to reply...and your response encompasses everything! a)Be good to yourself b)Be true to yourself c)You must learn to love yourself, before some-one else can love you. d)And I think, the old expression; "do not put all your eggs in one basket" is also key! You have limited yourself, and your happiness..to a love that didn't gel! Your life, your world, is much bigger than that...and possibly your dependency on just one person makes them feel too much responsibility! When you purport, exude self-confidence and happiness...you attract same! We care very much here, about your emotional welfare, so virtual hands across the ocean! Time to concentrate on YOU! And discover other forms of happiness!
• United States
19 Nov 11
I know you will not believe me but I was in your shoes. My heart was broken and I thought I would Never be happy again. I thought I was Suppose to Always be unhappy.But a friend told me what I am going to tell you. You are worthy of being happy. If she is really gone , then she wasn't The One. You have to grieve the lost . You Have to go through it so you can come out the other side. Once I realized that my ex wasn't the guy for me and that I Do deserve to be happy And I was willing to keep my heart open and try again, That's when I found the love of my life. So please just take the time to mend your heart and keep it open. I know you can be and Will be happy.
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@mr_pearl (5018)
• India
19 Nov 11
Hi Sarah... Its hard to express what I'm going through. I'd my week off for last two days and it seemed 2 years to me. Thankfully, I've office today... But I loathe that too... I need to change my job. Will do it on Monday. In my field, it is easy to change jobs... I need to change ASAP... Thank you Sarah...
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@mr_pearl (5018)
• India
19 Nov 11
Hello old buddy... I'm trying, trust me, to get out of it... But it haunts me. I used to be sucha nice felllow. Everyone thinks now, I'm a waste. I'd two week offs these two days, spent them all in my bed. Feel like a loser... Could not go out, could do nothing but myLotting and thinking... Sarah, if I could give this life to somone who needs it, I'd be grateful to God... Oh I'm such a waste now..
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• United States
19 Nov 11
are so lucky. It isn't easy to change jobs over here! I know what you are going through. The best was I can say it is Everything went from vivid color to black and white. Everything has lost it's joy or taste.You are alive but not living. All I can say is it Does get better. And if she is gone , then she didn't deserve you , Not the other way around. I'm Know you are in pain but you Have to go through it so you can be happy again. Not let your family tell you that bullsh!t about you getting old and you Should marry. Do what will make you happy. Just Do Not close down! To find a true love you need an open heart , Not a bitter one. write me when you need to talk and Remember I'm your friend and I Do care and understand.
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@Janey1966 (24170)
• Carlisle, England
18 Nov 11
You can be happy on your own you know. Sometimes I wish I was on my own and I'm sure others do too. Embrace your freedom..that's certainly one way of looking at it and the ONLY way of looking at it. Sure, being lonely can be difficult (and I should know) but you have your health and a job too, right? Happy days!
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@mr_pearl (5018)
• India
19 Nov 11
Hi Janey... I'm always amazed at your energy. You're positive about everything... I wish I could be like that. I'll try to be courageous... Thanks a lot....
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@mr_pearl (5018)
• India
20 Nov 11
Oh Janey Old friend... You won't need medication, not you. You're such an enthuusiast that if you decide, you can visit poor depressed creatures and bring sun shine to their gloom. Your energy, as I have seen on myLot, has no bounds and I'm sure in real life you're more energitic... People like you don't need medication. Your smiles become medication for others... Thanks a lot Miss... Have a good day!!!
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• Philippines
20 Nov 11
You're not alone.There many people who feels the same way as you do especially after a break-up.My friends and I feel the same way after we broke up with the persons we love.We feel alone even if we are in the middle of thousands of people because you're heart only longs for that someone you love ,who doesn't care about you anymore.I think the best thing we can do is to keep ourselves busy and take our time to heal.One day,we can can get over it and find happiness again.
@mr_pearl (5018)
• India
20 Nov 11
Hi there... I feel exactly the same way. Even if I'm among thousands, I feel so lonely. It is terrible too. I try to over come it. Try to fight it, with varying success. Sometimes, I become too confident and sometimes I can't find the depths of depression... Thanks a lot!
@joni1215 (394)
• United States
18 Nov 11
I feel for you Mr_Pearl. I have been where you are and it truly is a miserable place. You are asking for help but I can't help but wonder if you are truly open to it? Happiness is not outside of you. That is why all the begging and pleading in the world will not take you there. It is a choice, a decision you have to make. I know it's easier said than done , still it is possible. You have to look inside and look at yourself and see who you really are. And love that person. I guess learn to like this person first. Do for yourself what you want others to do. When you walk down the street learn to see love in the flowers, the birds, the happy faces and when you look in the mirror smile at yourself. Tell yourself nice things. It may take a while but it will change you.
@mr_pearl (5018)
• India
19 Nov 11
Hi Joni... I see your point. I understand it, but its hard to act on.. I know, if decided, I can feel happy on my own. The fear is, I don't know if that'll be perfect or not. Wouldn't it feel like borrowed or manufactured happiness?? I'm not sure... But thanks a lot. Guess, its worth trying.. I'll try... Thanks a lot Joni!
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@mr_pearl (5018)
• India
20 Nov 11
Hi Joni.. Thanks a lot.. I talk to myself, generally when I am in trouble, the talking helps me getting out of trouble... It involves analysing situation and finding out solution. I do that when in trouble. When I feel depressed, I feel ashamed of myself. It means I've failed. Joni, why do I feel like loser, is it justified??? But I'll try to act as you say.. Gosh, I've been through it once and I must know how it is. But I'll try my friend... Thanks a lot....
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@joni1215 (394)
• United States
20 Nov 11
I think you feel like a loser because you are gauging your happiness/success by outer signs. You have to decide what your boundaries are and comparing yourself to others will surely make you miserable. Each one of us has a different experience in life and so to measure yourself against others is a road to insanity. You can never compare. I think you might try not giving others so much power in your life. You have to keep a part of yourself for times like this. I have done this too and I met a time where I was empty and I never want to feel that way again. Just believe in you first. If you build a solid foundation then nothing can tear you down.
@enelym001 (8322)
• Philippines
19 Nov 11
I am one among those too I love the way you express your loneliness. Don't get me wrong, I don't mean I like you to just be lonely so you can write it beautifully. It's just that, I have felt every words you said here. Again, I was reminded that I am lonely and alone.
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@mr_pearl (5018)
• India
19 Nov 11
Hello... Thanks a lot.. No, I can't take it in a wrong way... Praise has been quite rare these days, so its appreciated... Thank you again... I feel sorry too that my words made you remember your bad times... Hope this'll be over soon... The end of this, in any form, will be the kindest gift to me from God... Thanks again dear friend.... :-)
@mr_pearl (5018)
• India
20 Nov 11
Well, if she'd been in my life, it'd have been tolerable life.. I'll try something... Thanks a lot!!!
@enelym001 (8322)
• Philippines
20 Nov 11
Only you can make yourself happy again. Don't think that having someone in your life will bring you that happiness. Good luck mr_pearl!
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@lampar (7584)
• United States
18 Nov 11
It is not really that bad to be alone and single like you want to believe, sometime it is alright. Just be happy and feel good, God is there for you.
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@mr_pearl (5018)
• India
19 Nov 11
Thats another thing too... I ask sometimes,'Is God really there?' and sometimes,'Does He care about me???'... I should have been prepared for this awful possibility... Its gonna be tough...
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@ybong007 (6643)
• Philippines
19 Nov 11
have you tried eating chocolates lately? they said, chocolates contains something that acts as a mood enhancer. Well, this may not take out your worries away but at least you'll face it with an upbeat mood. Just don't over do it.
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@mr_pearl (5018)
• India
19 Nov 11
Hi... I'm really not sure about it.. I'll give it a try... If that'll help, then it'll be really great... Thanks a lot...
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@Sanitary (3968)
• Singapore
20 Nov 11
There's no loner among millions of people. Just that fact u chose to share your feelings here and with comments coming back to u, it goes ow well received u are by others, and your friends. Love need not come from your partner. Love comes in many forms, including those from friends, parents, to even pets and animals. A good hearted, kind person will never be a loner because nobody choose to distance themselves to u, unless u distanced yourself from them.
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@mr_pearl (5018)
• India
20 Nov 11
Oh yes, my friends here on myLot have been of invaluable assistance to me. You guys help me to live through it, the guidance I get here is most helpful and it has worked in the past. I'm not distancing myself. I'm just trying to figure out which way I should go. I don't feel lonely when I'm here on myLot. And I'm thankful, immensely...
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@boyuancy (1708)
• India
21 Nov 11
Hi, please know that you are not alone who feels like that and there are millions. You need a partner with whom you can share every tinsie winsie incident of your life. It just fills the gap. Also the partner should be chosen correctly or you will end up being more miserable than you are now.
@mr_pearl (5018)
• India
22 Nov 11
Hello... Thanks for your advice... I know I need to find someone good... I made wrong choice the first time... Second time it was correct choice but I couldn't get to her in time... Now, I hope I will find someone good...
@lijoos (346)
• India
19 Nov 11
i have been alone for a long time. and i love to be alone..i love loneliness..because whats else i can do . its sometimes...a nice to be... but it hurt sometimes..
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@mr_pearl (5018)
• India
19 Nov 11
hi there... Loneliness is different from 'being on your own'. I, at times, love to be on my own. It is good and healthy solitude. But loneliness is something that is thurst upon you. It is the forced solitude, that gets you, eats you... I hate it!