I am making my own day... :-)

@mr_pearl (5037)
India
January 2, 2012 9:16am CST
My Dear Fellows... Through your invaluable support, with your precious suggestions and with your cheers; I made my day today... I am not sure if the expression 'make my day' conveys what I want to say.. So let me relate what I did... Today was our payday. I got the automated message by the bank that my money was credited.. I was lying lazily in my bed, then; and was going through my previous discussion. Many of you, my best buddies, had suggested to go out.. I thought I would do it... I went out to E-Square... Purchased two books... Purchased a tag, which the soldiers wear around the neck and watched Mission Impossible... I was alone, needless to say. I did not feel bad or depressed. I asked for one ticket, one coffee etc... And did not get any unusual reaction either... :-). Frankly, I do not know what it is that I did. I just filled my time, maybe. And feeling good about it, don't know why should I feel good too... I just made my day (please correct me, if the expression is wrong). Thanks to my buddies here... Thanks to you guys... False it maybe, but happiness reigns for some time... :-) All because of you!!! Thank you... Have a great day...
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@SIMPLYD (82918)
• Philippines
3 Jan 12
Yes, for me it also means the same as yours. It means to make us feel happy. So you see, going out and doing things you don't actually think of doing did really give you an enjoyment. Making our own day , happy is really up to us, my friend. I am glad you made your day, that day.
@mr_pearl (5037)
• India
7 Jan 12
Hello D... I made my day, the other day... True! But I am, unfortunately, unable to make every day a day... I am into the depths again... Depths, unknown ones, of darkness... The happiness was brief, too brief... The clouds of solitude reign again... Am sorry... I am messed up again....
@SIMPLYD (82918)
• Philippines
9 Jan 12
My friend, maybe it is best that you try to identify, what is really giving you such darkness. Once you know what it is, then try to solve it or maybe ask for help from your parents or siblings.
@mr_pearl (5037)
• India
13 Jan 12
You know I have become kind of a pendulum.. I keep swinging from happy state to sad ones from time to time... Now, I am feeling brighter and I feel sorry that I wrote such depressing post here... In fact, I am kind of ashamed (at this moment) that I was so depressed.... :( What is wrong with me????
• United States
2 Jan 12
Bravo!! I'm so proud of you!That's is exactly what I wanted you to do! You sweetheart will be at the bookstore Or you may meet her on your way to the movies. She Is put there! Not in your room, lol! I'm so happy to hear you had a great day. As for the expression, we Yanks would say I had a great day! ps. Wasn't Mission Impossible a great film?
@mr_pearl (5037)
• India
3 Jan 12
Sarah... Thank you! MI is great... Amazing stunts and a great cause for a mission claimed to be impossible. Yes, I had good time... Thanks to you. I am not really hopeful about finding a sweetheart so miiraculously Sarah.. All that I had on my mind, was to have a great time... I thought of nothing... I just lived the time... Thank you dear... Have a good day!
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• United States
3 Jan 12
That is the mindset. Go out have fun and let love find You! And if it doesn't , at least you had a fun day!
@mr_pearl (5037)
• India
3 Jan 12
Right dear... That is what I am aiming at... I can at least enjoy myself and be pleasent... It is better to enjoy than to face depression... :-)
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@enelym001 (8333)
• Philippines
3 Jan 12
I've missed your recent posts but somehow I still remember the first few posts I read from you the other month or last month. I am happy to read that you are feeling happy now despite being alone. No worries you would find someone one day and you will never feel lonely and alone again.
@mr_pearl (5037)
• India
7 Jan 12
Hi EN... Thanks a lot... I am lonely again.. The movies etc have got over me again. And I am alone again. Its a curse that hangs on me.. I'll post a new discussion about it. It has been crawling on my mind for a long time.... Thank you anyways.. I feel good that you friends care for me...
@enelym001 (8333)
• Philippines
7 Jan 12
Aw well that is such a natural feeling. One day we're happy, the next day we're not. I just hope someone would give you an inspiration so you not feel sad.
@mr_pearl (5037)
• India
7 Jan 12
I wish these are just momentary sad feelings and happiness will come back to my life again.. But I am quite convinced that it is false to cherish such hopes.. :( Thank you anyways EN... have a good time...
@sid556 (31005)
• United States
2 Jan 12
Don't even worry about "WHY" you should be happy...you feel good and that is all that matters. I'm glad today was better for you.
@mr_pearl (5037)
• India
6 Jan 12
Hey Sid... Thanks a lot... Yes, the happiness was good... Even if it was for a short time, it was amazing to experience it...
@sid556 (31005)
• United States
7 Jan 12
You should keep a journal of your good moments and then when you are down, you can read it and remind yourself how great life can be. When I was leaving my ex, my councelor had me write a journal of all the things he ever did to make me feel hurt or angry. He told me to write it in such great detail that in reading it I would actually feel the emotions I felt then. The point was to remind me why I left in case I had the thought to go back to him. I imagaine the same sort of therapy woud work for this maybe.
@mr_pearl (5037)
• India
7 Jan 12
Hi Sid.. Such a journel, as you say it should be, would not be really occupied.. There are very few happy moments dear.. otherwise, it is just loneliness .. Terrible solitude full of darkness... I am unable to grasp the right direction..... I am finished Sid... Now, all it remains is to drag on and on, until I am breathing... Or else, I am done...
@quita88 (3716)
• United States
2 Jan 12
GGGGGGGRRRREEEEAAATTT!! SEE? you filled up your empty time........that is all it takes and when you go out, you see people and try to shake a hand, say a hello, or whatever, but talk to someone and see if they are lonely too. You might make the greatest friends ! There are always lonely people who need someone..........maybe you are the one to fill their gap.?? Never know.... Now, you go for it :) hugs , quita
@mr_pearl (5037)
• India
3 Jan 12
Thanks a lot Quita.... I think, I just had to do that... It was necessary to have some good time, do some activity... I think, I had no options... I agree that there might be more loners like me... I'll try to reach and help them... Thanks a lot...
@quita88 (3716)
• United States
3 Jan 12
That's the way to go!! There are probably hundreds of others out in our world who also need a hand to lift them up too. Go for it and remember to love and laugh ! hugs , quita
@mr_pearl (5037)
• India
7 Jan 12
Hello.. Thanks a lot.. Quita, dear, that happiness was only momentary... I am not meant to be happy... I am all alone again... The depths of darkness are endless and I am simply lost... You know a curse hangs on me... :(
@LittleMel (14055)
• Canada
3 Jan 12
I'm glad that going out, got some good books to read and watched movies have made your day :) unusual or usual, they are just people's reactions as long as you don't hurt anybody, not doing any crime, enjoy life as it is when I was in high school I often went alone to watch movies because most girls my age only liked Pretty Woman, etc they watched it 5 times I don't mind romantic movies and cartoon but I also love action, documentaries, horror etc so there I was sitting alone watching JFK LOL Books too, I like reading mysteries, detective, adventures stuffs while most girls read romantic novels nothing against novels, I just thought mysteries and adventures are more exciting what books did you get?
@mr_pearl (5037)
• India
7 Jan 12
Hello... I am somewhat like you are... I love Sherlock Holmes than love stories. I admire Tom Cruise as Agent Hunt than a lover boy. I read about wars than love novels. And yet, I need love too.. I am also human, though unromantic, I am a good guy... It brings tears when I remember how I spoiled my ex girl. I gave her all she wanted.. And my resources were drained, she found another guy who gave her all she wanted... The happiness was momentary, my dear. I am in the depths of darkness yet again....
@mr_pearl (5037)
• India
7 Jan 12
I forgot to tell you about the the books... One is a Wodehouse classic... And the other is called 'Emotional Intelligence'.. I bought it with the hope of analysing my poor mind and hoping to do a little good to me... Have you read it???
• United States
2 Jan 12
Your welcome mr Pearl :-) I'm glad ur feeling better today. I know it is unpleasant to be lonely. But sometimes it can be good to be alone. Like for example if you need a minute to reevaluate your life or you need time to mourn a love one. Your never alone you got god and me too ({}).
@mr_pearl (5037)
• India
6 Jan 12
Hello... Thanks a lot... I know it is good be on your own at times, but not always... I am tired of the solitude... Thanks for being with me... I feel spiritually happy to be with all of you...
• United States
8 Jan 12
Yeah I know sometime you feel tired of being alone. I'ts a human need to feel love and wanted and to have someone to share your time with. Just be patient your time will come :-) until then do the best that you can.
• Philippines
12 Jan 12
wow!nice to hear this from you friend. glad that you felt good this day (i'm quite late, kinda behind of the news here nowadays :( . Hope this continues and find something that will really interest you and aid your social life.:) Now you are not feeling paranoid when you are alone, that people will stare at you. hahahh! Keep it up. I'm one of your "following" (like in twitter? i'm not sure though).
@allknowing (69306)
• India
7 Jan 12
I remember responding to that topic of yours. I went back to see. I notice you have had 29 responses and you stopped commenting at the eleventh response which would mean you found your answer. It is great that you were motivated by the responses that you received and by what you did you did make your day!
@Sanitary (3969)
• Singapore
6 Jan 12
That's good for u. U are taking your first step out of your own world, back into the real world. It's alright to be alone and i'm sure service crew who are serving u, have seen it all. It's good that u feel good and u just made your own day. U deserved it and hope u did enjoy it. Once u have a good start, i'm sure there will be more follow ups and slowly, u will gain friends of the same interest when u see them more often in the same area.
• Philippines
3 Jan 12
Thumbs up!^_^ its so nice to find someone who appreciate life and friends, and who is thankful for those that make you encourage to make your day a really good one. You can make everyday your day..be happy! ^_^
@jpso138 (7868)
• Philippines
3 Jan 12
Well that is certainly a great day. I have noted that you have accomplished so much for the day and I think it is very satisfying indeed. I know that if we put our heart and mind to what we want to do, we can accomplish so much. Sad to note, that my day is not as productive as what you have. But I will try to make up with it in the coming days.