Know who you are

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Know who you are. I have seen this words too many times admit, I have taken it for granted.Ironically, An aunt whom I have a difficulty "adapting" with told me this. It was the last few weeks that I had a deep reflection with myself;In regards to the saying. As she said those words I had flashbacks of events that reminded me I wasn't true with myself and I was distracted. Flashbacks consists of emotions; rage,envy,insecurity,maliciousness and a bit of gluttony..haha! kidding.. I was carrying pandora's box all along. Having to succumb upon the loneliness of hiding the truth within me, concealing the world of who I really am. worse, I was hiding the person that my family truly believed I was -- happy-go-lucky, smiling, fun, childish,creative, outspoken, bright,born leader and achieve-ism (made this word up ;p).Well, I don't know how my friends see me. lol. I can't remember how my doubts triggered but I recognize when it was all crumpled into a huge ball of dilemma. Summarizing these causing factors into: somehow, somewhere, and someone. Somehow, I kept myself troubled as to what the negative aspects people say about me.I used to be the person who dun-care-of-yall-haters. In the end, I still fell unto their trap of quicksand. How stupid was I. Somewhere, between the bitter experiences and sour critics,I never gave a taste as to how sweet life could really be. Someone, made me think twice of being me. A person who was loved by all, sweet to everyone and the society's apple of the eye.I admit, I want to be that and became a fool to be that. No, I don't hate that someone. Yet it was the exact opposite. The person who I grew to love and admire. An average person with an amazing talent likewise the charm. Meekness gentle as a Lily and a youthful brightness that sweeps you off into oblivion. Til now, I still wish I could emanate someone like that but I realize it's not worth the thought. I'd gamble my personality for the world than to be an awful double. I Am What I Am - what you see, is what you gonna get. deuces!