fake friends

Sometimes i feell like i am alone.... forever... everybody is talking ... laughing. and i am just going alone. i can'tsay that i don't have friends. but at the same time i have them. but sometimes i think that they are not real. they are fakes. I can't believe anybody. i feel like they try to bring me down like they are evil. i do not want to be with them but i have to. Have u ever felt like that before?