Forgive Me!

Philippines
April 27, 2012 11:01pm CST
Things are quiet doing great in my life. I have my two years relationship and were both happy. I have stable work, I started to engaged into small business and it went very well. God had provided me those things I had asked and I am very thankful for that. But are you aware of the feeling of being incomplete? Pretending to be happy, neglecting to worry about problems in my family. I can still feel the emptiness for I was the only one experiencing the greatness in life. I forgot my parents and my brothers. Do I sound selfish? Maybe I do. Sending money to them is not enough I guess they need my presence especially that we found out that our dad is not doing good anymore. So, this coming month I requested a vacation leave from my work for only five days allowable days for VL. It's been a year since I never went home though our province is quiet near from the city where I live now. I felt really bad after what I have done to them. I know I walk away without informing anyone. I hope they can still forgive me. I made my own stupid plan just for my own I'm sorry that I totally forgotten to include all of you.
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7 responses
@jinky2012 (439)
• Philippines
28 Apr 12
No worry my friend.Our parents are really understandable. They are happy if they can see that we are enjoying our work,As they say, they achievements are really taking care of them.Not just physically n\but financially.Christine be positive that they are the reason why are you doing your work so be happy. If you want also a vacation right now you can go.Its a pleasure to you and to your family.
• Philippines
28 Apr 12
Thanks jinky2012! Hopefully they really understood. Cause they have this kind of weird attitude. They just assume of me being selfish with what I have right now. I just want to prove them wrong. I may be far but my heart and my mind desires to be more successful together with my love ones of course. My fault for being not open to them I just can't say it literally but I am more on actions I guess.
@jazel_juan (15595)
• Philippines
28 Apr 12
Well it happens, we get busy and tend to neglect some love ones..but now you know it, take a step, maybe go out with them once a month or just visit them or just even call them
• Philippines
28 Apr 12
Thanks Jazel_Juan! Yeah thats what I'm planning too once a month visit in our place.
@laydee (12820)
• Philippines
28 Apr 12
Don't worry, parents are parents because they understand. I just hope that you could forgive yourself for whatever things you have not done for them. It's good that you are going to take some time off, perhaps it could be something regular next time. Like there are long weekends, you say the province isn't that far, then do that. Yes, our families need money, but they need to be able to know that they're still a part of you. God bless you and your family, most especially your dad. Have a great MyLot experience ahead!
• Philippines
28 Apr 12
Thanks Laydee! I would probably do that maybe once a month will do. I over enjoyed my self being free. Now my conscience is killing me.
@gloryacam (5546)
• Philippines
30 Apr 12
Well, I guess there comes a time in our life that we want our absolute freedom. I guess every parent understands that. As long as you maintain your communication with them. But, I suggest that you try to visit them once in a while. I'd like to share my own experience. Normally, in the last 4 years I was away from home, I constantly would go home to visit them. Last year, I don't know what came over me that I did not want to go home for a long time. Such that on December, it was my Dad and my mom who came to where I live now. And then I did not still go home, until a very bad incident happened in February that I was forced to go home. But, I stayed there just a few days and left in a hurry. And now, I wish I had spent more time with my family. Last March my dad met an accident. And, until now I'd like to beat my self because I was not able to spend much time with him. I thought that I'd go see him during the long holiday during Holy Week. Little did I know he won't even make it to that week. So... yeah, this is just my experience, but I'd like to share it with you so that you might not have the same regrets as I do. Of course, I'm not saying that bad things could happen to them. All I'm saying is that we all have a limited time with our parents. And let's make use of that little time to spend with them.
@gaiza12 (4893)
• Philippines
29 Apr 12
You'll always be their daughter, so no matter what you have done in the past, I am sure they will surely forgive you. As long as your sorry is sincere of course, you still have to ask forgiveness to them for what has happened in the past. One mistake will never be comparable to the million times you and your whole family where happy together.
• United States
28 Apr 12
They already forgave you or they would not except your money. I hope your not losing a lot of pay taking off those days. I think it will be nice to go back home as well.
@lisicong (36)
28 Apr 12
Don't feel sorry.I'm quite sure that there are some factors bring you to be who you are today.In your parents' view,you has always been their proud child.No one can do all things make people happy.I am sure that they would understand you.Now,I also have stable work.The job gives little pressure to me.However,my family think that the job is a good job,but I it isn't a really good job for me.I have planned to leave the place where I am working and do what I want to do.I know that the future job would be harder and my parents would not agree with me.But I don't care it.To make my dream come true,there is nothing I can do else but to do as I plan,which would make my parents unhappy.