I--Obedient Brother of the Prodigals--Am Confused ... HELP!

@mythociate (15324)
Oklahoma City, Oklahoma
September 29, 2012 5:15pm CST
You remember Jesus' parable of the Prodigal Son---where the one of two brothers asks his dad for his inheritance, goes out and squanders it & comes back to his dad willing to work as a slave in the household (where the slaves are better-off than he was himself elsewhere), and his dad goes and has a big party for the lousy son who comes crawling back while the non-lousy brother gets no celebration (except for the fact that he will inherit control of all of his father's possessions ... or so his father says---the same father who also 'said' his Prodigal Son was DEAD) Applying that to ME: I am not Prodigal (unless you count 'moving downtown to live alone' rather than 'living with my mom, blocks-&-blocks away from anything involving the exchange of money for goods-&-services').* But I am a "brain-injury conqueror." So no one's really sure how the rules apply to me (I am unemployably unpredictable), which makes me scary. I thought that church would find a way to make me acceptable (as God did when He realized that 'a man alone' was not a good condition ... (... yes, my first 'hope' was that the church would 'get me a wife'; but on second thought I hoped it would do that by giving me a job to do, where a woman co-worker could be convinced that I would be a 'good worker' elsewhere). And the church I go to seemed to be the one that would help most, as its main focus is a criminal-rehabilitation (i.e. prison) ministry. But this is where the confusion peaks in: most of these ex-cons are on their way to 'living the life' (with a wife, kids & a job). And they go on doing that, making me feel that the whole organization is just 'paying lip-service to God' and not even worried whether His next Begotten Son ('begot,' a word that seems to mean 'chosen' rather than 'birthed' due to its relation to the Greek word for "knee")--ME--had the necessary power to fulfill Our Father's Kingdom! (and by 'Our' I mean 'yours & mine,' not "royally a`mine ) *(... And no, I cannot go back to live with my mom. Well, I could; but it would be crowded (what with my sister, brother-in-law & two nieces living there). And besides, if I DID move back in then ... I'd be stuck with the same reason I moved out (too far away from civilization), and I would also be stuck with 'having given up my birthright' (which I never did (unless my mom wants to regard 'moving out' as equal-to-that ), but I'm trying to stick with the parable.)) I guess I should go back ... to the 'Prodigal Son's brother's problem. He had nothing but his dad's word that he would inherit his dad's stuff; I don't even have that (or any promise of any REAL inheritance, as I am without a lineage-place in the family)! What should I do?
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• United States
30 Sep 12
It is simple and hard at the same time. The best thing you should do is follow your bliss. Sit down and figure out what you want to do and go for it. See that's why I said it is hard and simple. Simple answer but actually a hard thing to do. But it is the fastest way to true happiness.
• United States
30 Sep 12
I don't understand. G-d is giving us something we don't notice? Or do we just don't care?
@mythociate (15324)
• Oklahoma City, Oklahoma
21 Oct 12
Well, maybe we notice what G-d gives; but we're not taking it as 'a gift from G-d.' Just like I'm sure my Facebook- & Twitter-connections 'notice' my discussion-links, but they see them more as 'a lazy way for nerds to get money' than as 'advice I am asking-from/giving-to them.' Sure, my "spirit" is perfectly happy giving the thoughts and leaving them to be ignored or picked-up or whatever; but that doesn't matter if I can't feed-&-shelter this "body!"
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• United States
29 Sep 12
Hey Mythociate. You are not "prodigal" whether you decide to "go home" or not. I am not sure what you need to do which is a good thing since you really have to decide that for yourself. I think maybe if you reexamine your goals you will find your answers. It sounds like your reasons for moving closer to activity are very important and it was a good thing with or without a wife. maybe she will come later, maybe she will not - either way you have to be happy with yourself first! I'd say stick it out where you are most happy.. and let life work out the rest!
@mythociate (15324)
• Oklahoma City, Oklahoma
30 Sep 12
I think I need this to be my "job," meaning I need a lot more support in it ... like a newspaper-writer with a 'salary' (which would be possible if I had a large network of devoted readers ... numbering somewhere in the ten-thousands--- which would be possible if all my friends cared enough to tell all their friends to read & tell all their friends to read and tell all their friends to read and tell all their friends to read and tell all their friends to read and tell all their friends to read and tell all their friends to read and tell all their friends to ... or-so)
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• United States
30 Sep 12
Do you do other types of writing? Blogs are good practice and then there are freelance opportunities that you could take advantage of just for practice until you could reach your dream!
@mythociate (15324)
• Oklahoma City, Oklahoma
30 Sep 12
Yeah, but there's the legal loopholes I would have to make my employers jump through in order to have unemployable-me work for them.