so much going on in my life right now

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I am sorry i have not been on here for awhile i have so much going on in my life right now.. here is a update i will try to write more later.. me and ex filed for divorce i should be getting that in the mail anyday now and be final.. after i left him. me my mom and oldest daughter all got a place together my daughter was pregnant and due in jan.. we have lived here about 2 month.. splitting the bills.. me and my mom.. well about 2 weeks ago my mom had a breakdown and was not making much sense so i took her to the hospital and they admitted her she stayed a couple days and i found out she had not been taking her meds.. which i had no idea becasue i never had to ever give them to her before.. she always did them by herself.. well me and my brother and sister have not spoke in over a year they are both mad at me.. so while she was in the hospital my brother came in and made plans that i did not know about to take her when she got released to go live with him.. but only after he told me to go pick up her meds which i payed for out of my pocket.. then still thinking she would be coming home with me i went and payed her due phone bill becasue my daighter was on her plan .. anyhow later when released i find out she is not coming here but going to live with my brother.. then the next day they come and get her stuff then they go and have my daughter taken off her phone have her cutt off after i had already paid the bill .. ok that also left me paying rent and utilities that i can barely afford on my fixed income check i get monthly.. so now to the present.. my daughter had her baby a month early we knew when he was born he would have to have immediate surgery he has a hernia and his bowels and heart pushed into his lungs so when he was born a month early his lungs did not get to develope enough and now he only has half of one lung and he is in uk hospital in icu and not expected to live.. but he was born on sunday and this is fri. so he has beat the odds so far for 5 days.. he cannot breath on his on and cannot have the surgery he needs until his lungs gets better if they do.. on the night he was born i called my mom to get support and her grandson answered her phone and would not let me speak to her he said they were having family time and i told him she was in labor he said we know.. so i had to go thru that by myself then later after he was born and we was told he might die we texted moms phone again and ask her to call instead all we got was a reply from my sister in law saying any news they will text about once a week and just say any news.. and i would reply back what we knew and they never reply back.. after asking if we need anything and have never came to the hopital ever.. so now i have to worry about my grandbaby dying and on top of that im struggling to pay my bills.. and get my daughter and me back and forth to hospital and pay parking fees, have money to eat on.. and gas.. now the baby daddy has came back into the pic he wants very much to be in his life and he said he can help us some.. but he just started his job and wont get paid until next week so there going to stay at hopsital for the weekend so i had to give her money for them to eat on and now im almost broke.. on top of that now that he is in the pic he took my place seeing the baby so now i cant go back in only parents until flu season is over.. and i had been able before to see him every day.. but i feel we did the right thing letting the daddy see him.. and i pray it will work out and my grandson cayden blaze will survive i have never gave up hope.. and wont until the end its just a shame that my family is acting like this and not there for me when i did nothing to deserve this.. even my ex husband does not even ask about cayden.. he is being a real a ... ... im so glad were almost divorced i dont need him im my life.. i have my good friend shelly to turn to thank God and my daughter has her step dad and his family.. from my first marriage he treats her like his own.. so we will be ok.. by the grace of God.. we will make it.. i just keep praying for baby cayden.. please join me in my prayers.. i will post more later