Tired but need to get going

Tweet

Great things are never easily achieved. This is something I've always known but because of daily pressing matters, we tend to push our luck once it came then we forget reality. I know because it's been the cause of my downward spiral. I have a lot to work on within myself: spiritually, emotionally, physically. I need to change because God knows I'm a mess. If only I could spare my family the pain, I will. Financial matters can do a lot to a person. Someone like me who owes people $2500 can either contemplate suicide or rot until it breaks them completely but we all know those are not options. It's bad but I can say I'm willing to do anything for $2500 because that would solve my debt problems. But I know that coming up with that much is not possible right now. I don't even have the capital to raise such an amount. Maybe I'm just overthinking this. Out of desperation perhaps? I could ask for more time but I don't know how those people will react. I had a chat with a friend just awhile ago and being a religious man, I asked him if God will still help someone who had done wrong but is now asking God for help to right his wrongs. I feel that someone or something is hindering me to solve my problems because all the steps I've taken to solve them have fallen and right now, I don't know what to do. Maybe a little rest will help me. I hope that by tomorrow', God will answer my prayers. He knows that I need him desperately more than ever.