Fearing the Known

@Rollo1 (16650)
Boston, Massachusetts
May 9, 2016 1:31pm CST
There's a blogging site that I haven't written for in a couple of years, I am still a member. I used to do very well there and made a bit of money. But it got very stressful and I slacked off. Then I stopped writing there entirely. I wasted months of my life writing bubbles instead. I get emails from this site often, and I ignore them. But today, I actually researched a job and thought about jumping in again. I didn't really get any further than that, though. It's so hard to get back into that sort of writing on demand. I doubt my skills. I feel inadequate. The site has changed. The people are different. I fear rejection. I probably can still do it, but there's that fear that accompanies the first foray back into old territory. Can I still jump through the hoops? Do I want to? I know it's normal to fear the unknown, but is it normal to have such trepidation about the known?
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@jahunt (1392)
• United States
9 May 16
I hear you! I have recently gotten back into this kind of work again as well after taking a hiatus. I guess it depends on how badly you want to do it or need the money. Personally, I need the money. Lol. It does keep my brain active as well I suppose...
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@Rollo1 (16650)
• Boston, Massachusetts
9 May 16
I suppose that is true. It forces one to think and write in certain ways. It's discipline. Ooooh, I hate discipline.
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@jahunt (1392)
• United States
10 May 16
@Rollo1 Lol! Sometimes I hate it too!
@jaboUK (53402)
• United Kingdom
9 May 16
In a sense it is unknown as the site has changed , and there are different people there. Good luck if you do decide to give it a go.
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@Rollo1 (16650)
• Boston, Massachusetts
9 May 16
They've changed a lot of things, so it seems different and new. Just not feeling the fit.
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@marlina (71303)
• Canada
9 May 16
If you are doubting your ability to write, please DOUBT NO MORE! I find that you are EXTREMELY talented. Go for it, you will succeed I know!
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@Rollo1 (16650)
• Boston, Massachusetts
9 May 16
But, am I going to want to work at it, or will I continue my lazy streak?
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@BelleStarr (37119)
• Portland, Connecticut
10 May 16
It is always tough to do writing on demand. I do it for Article Document but only when I like what they offer me. I get paid pretty well on the Journalist side.
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@Rollo1 (16650)
• Boston, Massachusetts
10 May 16
I have never looked at that site. I hate it when writing feels like a job, but them's the breaks.
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@Fleura (7113)
• United Kingdom
10 May 16
Never heard of them, are they any good? I just looked at the site but apparently I would have to have a legal right to work in the US, so I guess that's no good for me!
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@BelleStarr (37119)
• Portland, Connecticut
10 May 16
@Fleura Oh sorry about that I id hear that they are only good for US writers.
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• United States
10 May 16
You did before, you can again. The only real question is, do you want to do this? If the answer is yes, then you will be successful. If you do not want to do this, then forget about it.
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@Rollo1 (16650)
• Boston, Massachusetts
10 May 16
Lately, I don't seem to want to do anything. I hope that this phase either passes or I get a more comfortable chair in which to do nothing.
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• United States
10 May 16
@Rollo1 Could it be medical? I found that I had low magnesium levels several years ago. It messed with my mind. Once I fixed that, my brain returned to my "normal".
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@Rollo1 (16650)
• Boston, Massachusetts
10 May 16
@ElizabethWallace Oh, there are lots of medical issues. But they're very boring so I never discuss them. And then there's my inner laziness, that's in my DNA and therefore, not to be conquered.
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@MALUSE (38069)
• Germany
10 May 16
I don't understand your fears. A real life rejection can hurt, but an online rejection isn't so bad, is it?
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@Rollo1 (16650)
• Boston, Massachusetts
10 May 16
If someone rejects you in real life, you can say that they didn't like your shoes, or some other physical attribute. But online rejection is worse. It means they didn't like the real you, the one in words,
@MALUSE (38069)
• Germany
10 May 16
@Rollo1 I find you answer disturbing. My real me isn't only expressed in my written words. Why are there more misunderstandings online than offline? Irony, for example, is rarely understood. There is a reason why smileys were invented and are used so excessively. Body language is also important, as are the tone of voice, gestures, facial expressions.
@DianneN (74479)
• United States
10 May 16
I certainly have an irrational fear of the unknown. Most of the time it is senseless, but I feel good once I take the plunge. Give it a try. If you don't like it, you can always quit.
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@Rollo1 (16650)
• Boston, Massachusetts
10 May 16
I don't think it's irrational to fear the unknown. I think it's a valid survival skill.
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@DianneN (74479)
• United States
10 May 16
@Rollo1 In life, to be successful, one has to take calculated risks and make their own judgement call.
@paigea (21756)
• Canada
10 May 16
Well if it got stressful at some point that would be a reason to make me dread jumping back in. I keep trying to find the least dreadful way to earn money.
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@Rollo1 (16650)
• Boston, Massachusetts
10 May 16
I think the least dreadful is for someone to come to your door and hand you a bag o' cash. But that happens so rarely...
@paigea (21756)
• Canada
10 May 16
@Rollo1 wouldn't that be nice! The closest is the money from myLot I guess.
@Jessicalynnt (47790)
• Centralia, Missouri
10 May 16
I write sometimes for blogmutt and another such site, and I feel the same way, I have so much more fun here! Hard to walk away and do something that makes money but isn't nearly as much fun. I have supplemented here with crowdtap, so that's ok for now
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@Rollo1 (16650)
• Boston, Massachusetts
10 May 16
It's crazy hard to go back to writing for real money when you get used to a site like this where you're free to write whatever you want and have fun doing it.
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• Centralia, Missouri
11 May 16
@Rollo1 pretty much. I'd be ok with a small amount of 'assignments' I did enjoy writing for YCN before they Titaniced
@rebelann (38969)
• El Paso, Texas
9 May 16
Seeee, that's what you get for having fun instead.
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@Rollo1 (16650)
• Boston, Massachusetts
9 May 16
True, I put fun before profit. I suppose we all have to have periods in our life where we do that.
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@rebelann (38969)
• El Paso, Texas
10 May 16
I figure if I want to earn online it has to be fun @Rollo1 or at least some of it does, I do earn a little on search engines and we both know those aren't really that much fun so when I started earning with writing and sharing photos I decided it best be fun.
@Tampa_girl7 (24930)
• United States
9 May 16
I am that way. I have to consistently be involved in something or else old fears creep back in.
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@Rollo1 (16650)
• Boston, Massachusetts
9 May 16
Yeah, that's it. It's like starting all over again.
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@Corbin5 (100160)
• United States
9 May 16
I always question myself when I am thinking about a pursuit. It is normal for people to question their abilities too. I do know I would be stressed if I chose to work on demand, but others certainly can handle that type of writing.
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@Rollo1 (16650)
• Boston, Massachusetts
9 May 16
Sometimes I think I work best under pressure, but first one has to put oneself in the position of being pressured. That's the hard first step.
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• Bucharest, Romania
9 May 16
Well, you can try to get back there and see if it works out well.
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@Rollo1 (16650)
• Boston, Massachusetts
10 May 16
It's writing the first post that will be hard. After that, if it goes well, I will not have as much stres about it.
@ricki_911 (19048)
• Toronto, Ontario
9 May 16
Sounds like a lot of work for little money.
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@Rollo1 (16650)
• Boston, Massachusetts
9 May 16
The pay is not too bad, but it is hard work.
@valmnz (12638)
• New Zealand
11 May 16
I wonder if you should give it a go, to see if it still suits you. What do you have to lose? Be brave. Perhaps you'll find it's no longer the place for you.
@Shiva49 (12093)
• Singapore
11 May 16
I have been writing on topics that I am comfortable with in my own style. I have been sort of dancing to others' tunes all my working life so I like it here than trying to meet expectations and deadlines - siva
• United States
10 May 16
It is NOT unusual when the known offers fact that something is amiss . . . good post on decision making
• United States
10 May 16
I feel the same about Textbroker.com. In fact, I got an email today to join some teams. I used to write for them but didn't like the pressure of clients, etc. I haven't written there in a few years. I'm getting lazy and am enjoying casual, no-pressure writing like here on myLot, at least for now.
@miniam (9244)
• Bern, Switzerland
10 May 16
You have no reason to fear rejection and if you get rejected im sure it will not be the end of everything.If they choose to reject you, it will be their loss not yours.
@LadyDuck (147879)
• Switzerland
10 May 16
You should not doubt about your ability, there is no reason you doubt about this. I can understand that coming back to a site that has completely changed can give some trepidation. Go for it and try, at most you stop if you do not like.