Fearing the Known
By AnjaP
@Rollo1 (16679)
Boston, Massachusetts
May 9, 2016 1:31pm CST
There's a blogging site that I haven't written for in a couple of years, I am still a member. I used to do very well there and made a bit of money.
But it got very stressful and I slacked off. Then I stopped writing there entirely. I wasted months of my life writing bubbles instead.
I get emails from this site often, and I ignore them. But today, I actually researched a job and thought about jumping in again. I didn't really get any further than that, though.
It's so hard to get back into that sort of writing on demand. I doubt my skills. I feel inadequate. The site has changed. The people are different. I fear rejection.
I probably can still do it, but there's that fear that accompanies the first foray back into old territory. Can I still jump through the hoops? Do I want to?
I know it's normal to fear the unknown, but is it normal to have such trepidation about the known?
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27 responses
@jahunt (1380)
• United States
9 May 16
I hear you! I have recently gotten back into this kind of work again as well after taking a hiatus. I guess it depends on how badly you want to do it or need the money. Personally, I need the money. Lol. It does keep my brain active as well I suppose...
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@BelleStarr (61047)
• United States
10 May 16
It is always tough to do writing on demand. I do it for Article Document but only when I like what they offer me. I get paid pretty well on the Journalist side.
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@BelleStarr (61047)
• United States
10 May 16
@Fleura Oh sorry about that I id hear that they are only good for US writers.
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@MALUSE (69409)
• Germany
10 May 16
@Rollo1 I find you answer disturbing. My real me isn't only expressed in my written words. Why are there more misunderstandings online than offline? Irony, for example, is rarely understood. There is a reason why smileys were invented and are used so excessively. Body language is also important, as are the tone of voice, gestures, facial expressions.
@ElizabethWallace (12074)
• United States
10 May 16
You did before, you can again. The only real question is, do you want to do this? If the answer is yes, then you will be successful. If you do not want to do this, then forget about it.
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@ElizabethWallace (12074)
• United States
10 May 16
@Rollo1 Could it be medical? I found that I had low magnesium levels several years ago. It messed with my mind. Once I fixed that, my brain returned to my "normal".
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@Rollo1 (16679)
• Boston, Massachusetts
10 May 16
@ElizabethWallace Oh, there are lots of medical issues. But they're very boring so I never discuss them. And then there's my inner laziness, that's in my DNA and therefore, not to be conquered. 
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@rebelann (111306)
• El Paso, Texas
10 May 16
I figure if I want to earn online it has to be fun @Rollo1 or at least some of it does, I do earn a little on search engines and we both know those aren't really that much fun so when I started earning with writing and sharing photos I decided it best be fun.
@ricki_911 (21625)
• Toronto, Ontario
9 May 16
Sounds like a lot of work for little money.
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@Cristi_Ichim (3683)
• Bucharest, Romania
9 May 16
Well, you can try to get back there and see if it works out well.
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@Tampa_girl7 (49163)
• United States
9 May 16
I am that way. I have to consistently be involved in something or else old fears creep back in.
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@Jessicalynnt (50525)
• Centralia, Missouri
10 May 16
I write sometimes for blogmutt and another such site, and I feel the same way, I have so much more fun here! Hard to walk away and do something that makes money but isn't nearly as much fun. I have supplemented here with crowdtap, so that's ok for now
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@Jessicalynnt (50525)
• Centralia, Missouri
11 May 16
@Rollo1 pretty much. I'd be ok with a small amount of 'assignments' I did enjoy writing for YCN before they Titaniced
@arthurchappell (45002)
• Preston, England
10 May 16
push yourself to write something there again just once - it should break through the anxiety barrier for you - good luck
@andriaperry (116860)
• Anniston, Alabama
10 May 16
Sounds like its NOT unknown. Think about why you quit. Then think about how long ago it was. Now think about this.... probably all new people and new rules. GO FOR IT! I most certainly would. You never know till you try.
@LindaCPearson (2241)
• United States
10 May 16
I feel the same about Textbroker.com. In fact, I got an email today to join some teams. I used to write for them but didn't like the pressure of clients, etc. I haven't written there in a few years. I'm getting lazy and am enjoying casual, no-pressure writing like here on myLot, at least for now.
