On birthdays

May 20, 2016 3:12am CST
I can't recall when I started dreading my birthday. I only know the reason why. My overthinking skill is at its best during that day. Just this March 5th, I turned 24. At around 1:00 am on that particular day, I sat on my bed weeping for no clear reason at all. I remained one hell of a mess until around 4: 00 am; only retreating to sleep out of exhaustion. I told my friend that I don't want to have anymore birthdays but I don't want to die yet. It gave her a good laugh. Later that day she admitted to having the same thoughts as I have. Anyone else?
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@jaboUK (64361)
• United Kingdom
20 May 16
I'm afraid I can't understand this - you're 24 and crying over birthdays? I've had 76 of them and enjoyed every one
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@jaboUK (64361)
• United Kingdom
20 May 16
@dudibelles I'm a lady
23 May 16
@jaboUK My bad, sorry. ;)
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20 May 16
Haha, I envy you sir. I don't know why I get so worked up. Guess, I need more positivity in life. :)
@flapiz (22403)
• United Kingdom
23 May 16
Haven't had this thoughts yet but maybe this year I will be as I turn 26. I'm not really scared of dying yet as I'm confident that I'm taking care of myself enough to last me until my 50s.
@flapiz (22403)
• United Kingdom
23 May 16
@dudibelles I'm very sure that's achievable. All the best.
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23 May 16
@flapiz Thanks! :))
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23 May 16
Good for you :)) My goal for this year is to be healthier because I've had several visits to the doctor in the past months,
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@Wizzywig (7847)
21 May 16
I wake up, feel gratyeful that I've made it this far and can still take care of myself, walk unaided and have my own teeth.....I see so many people who can't
23 May 16
I'm also grateful, it's just that I think I also needed to unload. I feel bad but it helps after a while. :) Anyway, I'm hopeful for the coming years :)
• India
20 May 16
i do !! i just feel morose and cry at times on my bdy...although everything is perfectly fine...but i'll be laying on bed and feeling emotional.... for some weird reason im not really enthusiastic about bdys
20 May 16
I say birthdays are overrated.. at least for adults. haha. Anyway, in spite of myself, I still see to it that I enjoy my day after the weeping?
• India
20 May 16
@dudibelles ohhhh the day goes good with family and frndz ...when all the crying is out of my system bdys are like huge banners saying "yes im getting old .....and i cant control it"
20 May 16
@BlissfullySilent As it should be :) . With regards to the body, I couldn't agree more. :D
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