I Feel Like A Hamster On A Wheel
By MARILYN
@Marilynda1225 (79731)
United States
July 29, 2016 9:48am CST
As the days as flying by I feel like I'm a hamster running on a wheel....I"m running but getting nowhere fast.
My mom has been in the rehabilitation facility now for over 4 weeks and although she's getting excellent care I'm exhausted and I'm finding my concentration is off. My thoughts are scattered and I feel like my mind is a ping pong game with the ball bouncing back and forth between when will she be able to come home and I don't see her coming home any time soon if ever.
Even sitting here trying to read my mind wanders and I have to reread everything 2x.
I find myself wishing I could take a nice vacation somewhere beach related where I can just sit and relax and not have to worry about a darn thing.
But, it's not in the cards so I'll just have to plug along and take each day as it comes.
The overnight rain and the showers this morning are giving way to sunshine so when I go out later I don't have to deal with an umbrella.
Smiles to everyone here and hope you have something fun planned for the weekend 
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23 responses
@LovingMyBabies (85127)
• Valdosta, Georgia
29 Jul 16
I'm sorry for everything that's going on in your life. I hope things calm down for you soon. 
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@LovingMyBabies (85127)
• Valdosta, Georgia
29 Jul 16
@Marilynda1225 Yeah that is true, some things are harder than others though. God is good. =)
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@Marilynda1225 (79731)
• United States
29 Jul 16
We all have something to deal with Jen but God is good and always gets us through somehow
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@Marilynda1225 (79731)
• United States
29 Jul 16
I definitely need a break and a nice bubble bath just might do it
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@quantum2020 (12040)
• Ciudad De Mexico, Mexico
29 Jul 16
I have some plans for this weekend, involving visiting flea markets where I can find somethings that I might need. I´m going to spend next Sunday doing this. I might eat out of the house too.
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@Marilynda1225 (79731)
• United States
29 Jul 16
Enjoy your swim at the lake. I haven't been swimming in years and it was always something I loved to do during the summer months. Hopefully one day I'll be able to enjoy swimming again
@jillybean1222 (6408)
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29 Jul 16
oh i hate all the worrying. i'm sorry. i too would love a nice relaxing beach vacation! hope you find a way to rest & rejuvenate
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@Marilynda1225 (79731)
• United States
29 Jul 16
I'm my own worst enemy and always put everyone elses needs ahead of mine until I run myself into the ground. You would have thought by now I'd have learned.
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@andriaperry (116860)
• Anniston, Alabama
29 Jul 16
being a caretaker is a hard job, I know I have done it for the last 15 years or more. I am sure I will not do another after Tony, I am worn out too.
Once this older man said while helping his older brother "taking care of them old people will kill you!"
Just try to get more sleep and eat right, remember she is being taken care of so think of yourself a little more.
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@Marilynda1225 (79731)
• United States
29 Jul 16
I know i have to take better care of myself and you are right that she's in good hands and being well cared for. It's just that I feel guilty when I don't visit every day even though it's probably not logical to think this way. I'm always amazed at how you burn the candle at both ends and do as much as you do!!!
@much2say (53958)
• Los Angeles, California
29 Jul 16
It's hard when so much is on your mind. Maybe it would be good to change things up . . . something out of the norm, something out of the routine . . . to help with focusing on something else? It is a huge relief to know your mom is in excellent care - it's great to know she is in good hands.1 person likes this
@hostessman (11871)
• Tucson, Arizona
29 Jul 16
there are times we try to do to much.. you need to just slow down and take a little "you time" . relax and do something you enjoy..forget about the world just think of yourself... You deserve a little time alone....
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@Marilynda1225 (79731)
• United States
29 Jul 16
A little alone time is probably what I need even if I can't enjoy a trip to the beach. Your advice is much appreciated
@PainsOnSlate (21854)
• Canada
30 Jul 16
You are under a lot of stress and I hope you take the time to calm yours self and your thoughts. Exercise will help and so will sleep. Take care of yourself while so stressed, Your health and sanity is important...
@Marilynda1225 (79731)
• United States
29 Jul 16
I haven't had a vacation in many years but it's ok ...I'm sure one day I'll get to enjoy a trip to the Jersey shore
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@Marilynda1225 (79731)
• United States
29 Jul 16
Yes, things change and there's always a light at the end of the tunnel
@salonga (27775)
• Philippines
30 Jul 16
I feel for you, it is really not an easy situation but God is good. He will give you the comfort and strength to carry through. Keep smiling.
@lilnana1111 (2305)
• United States
30 Jul 16
Sounds like you do need a vacation, or at least a mind vacation, take care.
@responsiveme (22926)
• India
30 Jul 16
i understand , it gets very difficult for the caregiver. Smiles coming your way too
@ValueAdder (409)
• Philippines
30 Jul 16
I remember Robert Kiyosaki's picture of a rat on a wheel and it was captioned, "The Rat Race". I am sure that you are not the only one who is feeling like a rat running on a wheel. There are millions around the world, who are right now, running - keeping themselves busy with a lot of things but at the end of the month, there are still lots of wheels to run because the result is not enough to get out of the rat race. Praying for good health to you and your mom.
