Memory Good or Bad I Wsh I Had Not Said "Oh My God"
@Hatley (163781)
Garden Grove, California
March 30, 2017 2:32pm CST
Thinking about a co worker I was
very fond of when we worked in the
Tustin brancn of the Orange Countt
Library system.
One day she tolld me" you are older
than me yet you have more energy My
back is killing me.'
" Adrian you need to see your doctor as
thats been bugging you for too long.
Adrian took time off to see her doctor.
when she came back I was in the staff' room
eating my lunch She told us tjey x rayed
her and found she had a huge tumor in
her lungs.
Shocked knowing it had to be Ca I blurted
out"oh Adrian oh m y God." She assured us
she would be fine and hugged me I wanted to
die having blurted out that.
But alas I was right, Cancer and a month
later chemo did not stop it, and she died in her
sleep That burst out of mine has haunted me off
and on this has been at least ten years ago.
Mylotters have you ever blurted out a thought
you wish you had n?? ot. I had not wanted to show
i was scared for her
One original post and graphic by P Hatley
cp[righted 2017
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@Hatley (163781)
• Garden Grove, California
30 Mar 17
I certainly hope so. that cancer grew so fast but she had complained for weeks of a back ache
@lovinangelsinstead21 (36850)
• Pamplona, Spain
30 Mar 17
Must have been heart breaking for you and you could not help it as you were working with her and obviously knew her well.
I would have had to run out so as not to say anything out loud.
I would have been so upset myself.
You only did what you thought at the time.
Of course you remember it.
I could not tell our Mom what she had got and it was way too late anyway she also went peacefully without knowing a thing.
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@lovinangelsinstead21 (36850)
• Pamplona, Spain
30 Mar 17
@Hatley
Bet you miss her a lot sometimes. I know I would.
I have got close to a few people I worked with but sadly I had to leave them and I have not seen them since but at least I knew them and that is something.
@Hatley (163781)
• Garden Grove, California
31 Mar 17
it was alopst l ike s o mething just pulled the words out of me I wa so shocked I was not expectng it
@Jessicalynnt (50525)
• Centralia, Missouri
30 Mar 17
I doubt she was that upset by it, it showed how worried you were. I just wish she had gone to the doctor sooner.
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@Hatley (163781)
• Garden Grove, California
31 Mar 17
@Jessicalynnt no its hard telling too she had just lost her husband to cancer of the liver I think she ultimately gave up as she was very lonely
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@Jessicalynnt (50525)
• Centralia, Missouri
31 Mar 17
@Hatley maybe and maybe not, maybe they would have found something, maybe it would have been too early to tell, or they might have missed it. Can't blame ourselves for stuff outside our control
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@RasmaSandra (73725)
• Daytona Beach, Florida
30 Mar 17
Of course. Blurting something out due to certain emotions is a natural thing. Usually it happens when I don't even think about it and yes, sometimes I sure wish I hadn't said a thing.
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@JamesHxstatic (29267)
• Eugene, Oregon
31 Mar 17
It was not a bad reaction at all and it was heartfelt by you.
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@CRK109 (14558)
• United States
30 Mar 17
I'm sure your thoughts were exactly the same as hers. I know she had to be terrified at what the doctors found and she knew you cared very deeply about her. After all, you're the one who encouraged her to see her doctor to begin with. If not for you, who knows how much sooner she would have passed away. There is no need to feel any remorse for your comment, Patsie. In the end, I know that she knew your true feelings for her life. xoxo
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@Happy2BeMe (99390)
• Canada
30 Mar 17
I think it is a normal reaction you have for somebody you care about. She probably never thought much of it because she was scared too.
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@MistyckMoon (924)
• United States
30 Mar 17
I think your response was a perfectly human response from someone who truly cared what was happening. I am sure she was not offended by it and understood your concern. Even though she could not be saved, you played a part in getting her to see her doctor and at least try to get treatment. You did a good thing and should not feel badly about your response. Love understands love.
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