It is hard to say Goodbye....

Southborough, England
May 11, 2018 2:23pm CST
For the past 4-5 months I think I have been in denial, or maybe it just hasn’t set in yet that the woman who brought me into this world is no longer with me. I mean I have my moment where I just suddenly sit still and think ‘Mum would have loved this...’ or ‘Mum would always laughed at that...’ it’s in those small moments that I realise she is no longer here so laugh with me, to cheer me up or help me when my fears flare up. My mum has suffered for years with heart and lung problems and I knew the time was coming, However since the day she passed I still haven’t cried, I know deep down it’s something she wouldn’t have wanted, but don’t I need a good cry to let go? To stop these emotions from stirring a storm in me? I’m worried that it’s just going to hit me hard and I’ll break, something my mum would t have wanted. So, what should I do? What would you do?
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@amadeo (111948)
• United States
11 May 18
I know how you feel.I lost mine
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@pearlrosa (138)
• United States
12 May 18
Youre not alone. I still think of my mama all the time even though it's been five years since she passed away
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@patgalca (18181)
• Orangeville, Ontario
11 May 18
First, I am so sorry for your loss. My mother is still alive. At 93 she has dementia so I feel I lost her a while ago. She's not really there, can't carry on a conversation with her, certainly can't cry to her about my problems. I will go see my mother on Sunday, Mother's Day, but I miss the woman she was. And honestly, I hate to see her suffering.
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@RubyHawk (99423)
• Atlanta, Georgia
12 May 18
My mother passed away a few years ago. There isn't much you can do other than grieve in your own way. I think about her every day. Sometimes I see her in my minds eye when we were talking and giggling and she seems so near.
@YrNemo (20261)
12 May 18
I cried buckets of tears when my adopted mother passed away. Then I stopped & couldn't shed a single tear anymore. Afterwards, for years I kept crying whenever I attended any burial ceremony.