Advice and insight from my mylot associates and friends
March 24, 2007 5:20am CST
Strangely enough it would appear that all of you folks out there in webland may have a better view of the innards of my relationship than I have myself. What I mean y this is that for the entire time that I have been a member here and have posted regarding my relationship and or about my fiancee G I get an overwhelming number of responses that recommend jettisonning the relationship into space as quickly as possible. I have wiggled and struggled and justified some of the most ridiculous crap in my 20/20 blindness as to the state of my union. Well you nay sayers will probably like to know that the relationship has managed to come unglued and unstuck. Due to my financial instability at present I am forced to remain here until I can afford to be gone. I know that the state of my financial affairs is in large part to my own actions or lack or action during the 2 1/2 year campaign that my 'beloved' has maintained to cripple any of my financial income streams of which he did not approve. However as the two of us share a four bedroom house with each other only. I simply moved myself and all of my personal effects into the spare bedroom and have begun the arduous and detail oriented task of un fastening our lives and connections to one another. Wish me luck with this endeavor and the maintenance of both my sanity and my naturally sunshiny personality. They are both often called to question and or reported A.W.O.L. lately so pray for me! Or "us" (which is no longer an intety, well not a living one!) So pray for he and I. Thanks for your support and constant advice. I really do listen sometimes!
24 Mar 07
I know I said that it sounded like a disfunctional relationship to me ... but honestly girl ..do what is right for you .... do what you feel and when you dont feel it anymore you will guit ... because that is when you have learned what you needed to from that relationship and can move on in freedom and understanding of ourself ... everyone is in our life for a reason ... it may not be forever or for the reason we think it is ... it maybe just for us to learn something else ... so be where ever you are and learn what it is you need and then go to the next step .... its all about learning and growning ... one step at a time ... My prayers and thoughts are with you ....both