I have to trust God today but could use some prayers for my ex!

Well, what are you really asking? Are you wondering if you should be by his side or be there for him, or just sit at home and not say anything? I just went through an experience with my husband being very dire and in the hospital and some of his family ran around saying "poor me" their brother/son/etc is in the hospital so "poor me" - they didn't wonder what they could do to help the situation, etc. Worry doesn't help anyone. What was the most comfort to the people around us and to us was when someone used all that energy and worry to do something to help the situation. Find out from the family if there is anything that is needed. Not what YOU want to do, but what they truly need. If someone who can't drive needs a ride to the hospital, if they need someone to go water the plants or check on their house or his, or whatever it may be. God hasn't let you down just because you have had some hard knocks. I like to think of the phrase "God doesn't stop the storm, but helps you weather the storm." And also, sometimes we make the wrong choices and then blame God when it goes badly. And besides, whatever happens to your ex, it is not something "happening to you", it is your ex's life and your ex's path. You can feel a certain way about it, but if we begin to look at God having forsaken us jjust because people we care about get sick, die, etc, then we would never be able to function. Also, you are "asking God to get him through." God is not "santa claus" who fills our wish list(as some things we may be sorry we asked for!). You may get more comfort or find it does more good by being THANKFUL when you pray. Be THANKFUL for David's life and the experiences you had together when you were in a relationship. Be THANKFUL for your own health and whatever else. be THANKFUL that whoever told you thought enough of you to let you know he was having surgery in the first place. You don't know what God's will is here. Just ask for the healing hand of Jesus if it is God's will. I am not trying to Bible thump here, but my life really changed from one of feeling "entitled" and being miserable to being a bit more aware of just how good I had it and I am a lot less stressed and sick over things.