Does life get you down?
By bluemars
@bluemars (952)
Australia
April 4, 2008 7:26am CST
Sometimes I just feel so low and I am normally trying to be positive with myself and others but like sometimes I just get stuck in a black hole and I can not get out and I beat myself up inside my head about things that should not matter and should not stop me from living my life but thank god for mylot where I can come and say my thoughts and I feel better for doing so even if I am in my darkest hour and all seems like nothing. I hope tomorrow is a better day and I hope that I can have some peace in my mind at least if not a bit of happiness.
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@LouRhi (1502)
• Australia
30 Apr 08
yep life sure does get me down sometimes, thankfully not to often but there are times when I feel I have been sucked into a big black vacuum of nothingness.
I am currently teetering on the edge of one now so I am not sure how much I have to offer in terms of being positive right now!
However these are some of the things I try to think about to pull myself up.
With out the downs we would never know the ups
There is always someone who has it much worse, to find them open a newspaper, listen to the news or even talk a walk down the road
While we may not know the reason, rest assured that there is a reason behind everything
Well I hope this helps, actually I must admit I am feeling a little better already. Good luck with it all and remember we are never truly alone unless we want to be
~ may in every way this be a special day ~
However these are some of the things I try to think about to pull myself up.
With out the downs we would never know the ups
There is always someone who has it much worse, to find them open a newspaper, listen to the news or even talk a walk down the road
While we may not know the reason, rest assured that there is a reason behind everything
Well I hope this helps, actually I must admit I am feeling a little better already. Good luck with it all and remember we are never truly alone unless we want to be
~ may in every way this be a special day ~2 people like this
@bluemars (952)
• Australia
6 May 08
Thank you so much for those words I really was thinking about why and why on my own just a moment ago but you are right sometimes all we need to do is put things into perspective to say the least and appreciate what we have already. I know that can be hard especially if you are so far down that hole. I am going to try though because I do know that there are many good things about life and that there are many good reasons to be happy about and be joyful for. I guess sometimes we do get so caught up in just feeling bad and not realize the sunshine outside. I think I may just take that walk outside. I do want to be able to do all those things because I do hate to being down and not being able to pull myself up again. It can be hard but it is something I do want at the end of the day.
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@flowerchilde (12529)
• United States
4 Apr 08
I hope today gets better for you! I know what depression is like, I used to suffer from long drawn out, deep, dark depressions.. I can still sense that black hole from time to time usually when pressures have (finally) wore me down, then I get angry, and if I don't change my thinking, I'm soon dipping my toes in the black hole.
- I had a very hard childhood with abuses, etc, depression was somewhat of an ingrained habit. Til one day (years ago) I was standing in front of the bookshelves and I froze, or rather, the Lord 'stopped me' and it entered my head something like this "you can't get out of your depressions because your depression has no name or face" (I didn't know why I was depressed, besides some inkling it was left over from childhood) then I realized, like an inner door opening, I was mourning the loss of my original family, my parents and three brothers and one sister, as we'd been estranged for 15 years. After that (breakthrough) whenever I got the blues, I was able to put a time limit on it, say, for ten minutes, I would let myself think negative thoughts, then I would turn them off.. and would even, whenever I thought a negative, would replace it with a positive or blessing thought, and even imagined a big X over the negative thought. I learned that I had to retrain my thinking.. I had deeply etched neuron pathways.. my thoughts ran well worn paths, like grooves, and I had to break out of those and form better ones.. Now years later, too, I've learned to spot the warning signs, and recover before I get very far or dive into the dark pit..
- A few years back, I realized that when I got stressed out and angry, I discovered that in my mental mutterings I would be calling myself names! But I've learned not to do that anymore also, for the most part! I've said a little prayer for you..
all the best..


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@bluemars (952)
• Australia
5 Apr 08
Thank you so much for your thoughts and your response. I am and have noticed that I am trying to do what you described by catching the shark before it lands at my feet. I think I do a good job of it but it does catch me out sometimes and I sadly admit giving the reins to it. I think it is important to make sure that we recognise what we are doing as or even before it happens, like that feeling that you know in your heart of hearts is the one that always takes you to that well imbedded place of fear.
Yes it is a struggle and such a learning curve and so intense at times that I wish I didn't have to endure it alone but I want to do it on my own and rise above that state that causes one to decline so rapidly without warning. I am so thankful that you touched on this subject, I know I don't know you but your words tell me that I know we share the same head butt that we have between ourselves. It is such a touchy subject too and I am so grateful for the kindness that still exists in this what sometimes feels like a god forsaken world. Thank you.
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@flowerchilde (12529)
• United States
7 May 08
..thanks for best response..
It was good for me to come to this thread and read a little! I got a little down this last weekend because I got in a big argument with my daughter.. she can be very abrupt sometimes and sometimes I forget and call her up on it.. and that's always a mistake! So after that I got the blues and feeling like we (humans) just have the same problems over and over.. and got to feeling like what's the use? the problems never seem to go away or get any better! Then I realized I had to stop thinking like that (too painful) and the best thing for me to do, when all that happens is to start loving the Lord.. it really does help.. as the blues (sadness with anger is what I get) are just, so not fun!
- Sometimes I can't help but feel like I'm getting nowhere with the many things I want to accomplish.. then yesterday i reread a book I wrote (a short one about the book of revelation) and then began to feel like I've actually accomplished what I set out to do. So now I'm feeling much happier. And I'm finding that's another key.. finding those things we've accomplished.. raised my kids.. etc.. whatever it is.. grew some flowers.. kissed my grand daughter's cheeks.. You're right (your post further down) there's so much to be thankful for! Hope you have a great day/week
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It was good for me to come to this thread and read a little! I got a little down this last weekend because I got in a big argument with my daughter.. she can be very abrupt sometimes and sometimes I forget and call her up on it.. and that's always a mistake! So after that I got the blues and feeling like we (humans) just have the same problems over and over.. and got to feeling like what's the use? the problems never seem to go away or get any better! Then I realized I had to stop thinking like that (too painful) and the best thing for me to do, when all that happens is to start loving the Lord.. it really does help.. as the blues (sadness with anger is what I get) are just, so not fun!
- Sometimes I can't help but feel like I'm getting nowhere with the many things I want to accomplish.. then yesterday i reread a book I wrote (a short one about the book of revelation) and then began to feel like I've actually accomplished what I set out to do. So now I'm feeling much happier. And I'm finding that's another key.. finding those things we've accomplished.. raised my kids.. etc.. whatever it is.. grew some flowers.. kissed my grand daughter's cheeks.. You're right (your post further down) there's so much to be thankful for! Hope you have a great day/week
... @paid2write (5201)
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4 Apr 08
I'm so please you feel better for coming to myLot and expressing how you feel. I think it is great that there is somewhere for all of us to get some inspiration.
I do know how you feel in that black hole. I am someone who loves life but I have always had some darkness in my soul. I am happy now and I have found peace of mind, so I really hope it will happen for you too.
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@bluemars (952)
• Australia
5 Apr 08
Thank you so much and I really hope I am able to do that and you are right this is a great place to be able to come and release a lot of what we build up inside and when we feel to afraid to let anyone else in. I think one can find much solace here, that I can be grateful for. I know we must all go through this at one point or another but I would rather feel the sun's warm rays right about now just to feel some warmth in my life. I thank you for your kind words they mean a lot.




