Heaven and hell

I used to be when I was younger. But not really anymore. I mean, I've learned alot now...I'm not christian (I don't think I ever was), I know more about my culture and other cultures...and have settled into my own way of living. My way is to accept what wrongs I've done and to atone for them. If I end up to some awful afterlife for something I've done, then I will accept it. But that doesn't change or affect my personal decisions because I've always tried to do what's best by everywhere I've been. I treat people on a case-by-case basis, and let people know what rules I follow up front. (My three strikes you're out rule's the only major one) I believe I make my own destiny, and that all anyone can do is try their hardest. If I am wrong, somehow, in this belief then I'll deal with the consequences of this calculated and reasoned through decision of mine when I get to it. I always said, "A heaven with a ruler who condemns you even though you tried your best and tried to do what was right, is not a place I want to live. It sounds more like a prison with a dictatorous administrator than after its namesake." and I'll stand by those words, even in hell if that is in fact where I go. I am what I am. Those who can't love me for that (including celestial perfect beings) aren't worth it. I guess in the end, it's just me living by my motto, lmao. "Hope for the best, prepare for the worst". No use worrying about the distant or unknown future. All that's worthwhile and something you can actually do something about, is the now and near future.

I guess no one would like to go to hell (LOL). Of course, I'm scared that I would not go to heaven because of my wrongdoings. All of us have done mistakes and wrongdoings, but God is good, forgiving and loves us, so I'd pray and ask for forgiveness and help.