He hates me and I can't deal

Move on. If you really would have cared, you wouldn't have put him through the public humiliation. Remorse is normal after a break-up. But next time you feel that way, don't call him, especially not drunk. You just make a fool of yourself. It's time to move on and find somebody who deserves you;)

you should leave the man alone. you got revenge and now you want forgiveness. the revenge you took was a big one at that not like denting a car etc. you did somthing that cant be fixed. granted if you got the std from him and depending on what it was he may have done the same thing to you in another sense. he has every right to feel this way. not to mention maybe he is telling the truth maybe he didnt give it. depending on what it was. you can pick up some from a restroom, from trying on clothes at a store, some you dont know when you got it. it can take years for some to show up. now if he is the only person you have been with and it is one that you can only get that way then ok blame goes where it should but if not you may owe him a big appology that will never fix what you did.

We can still care about someone even though we can't live with him! You did something that humiliated him, and even though you may regret what you've done, you can't go back an undo it. Maybe in time he will get over his anger but in the meantime there isn't much you can do but apologize, let him know you did what you did because he hurt you, and wait it out. It doesn't really matter who gave what disease to who. Sometimes those things don't make appearances right away and it could have been from a previous relationship either one of you had. No sense in pointing fingers at this point. Just don't let other people tell you how you should feel.

It is best that you really leave things the way they are right now. You have done you're part of destroying him by posting his name on the net and I think that is enough for him to be pissed about you. How do you think can he forgive you at this moment in time. So if I were you then you should start moving one with your life without him at your side. It is not him that caused it to be so out of control but it was the both of you. If you still had feelings for him then maybe you should not have done anything as drastic like posting his name and destroying his reputation.