...And Now I'm thinkin I'll swerve off the road

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I don't know if this is the right outlet for how I'm feeling right now but this is where I happen to be, so this is where it's going! I am exhausted and sad and I just don't want to try anymore. I am so sick and tired of working my a$$ off for nothing. I can't afford to pay my bills, I can't find a job, and I can barely get up in the morning. I'm just SO tired of constantly feeling like a failure, of always being in crisis, of never being able to get by. I work so hard and nothing ever comes out of it, I mean God - I barely get a paycheck, and when I do get one there's a nicely folded lay-off slip inside! I have been doing it on my own since I was fourteen and I'm just so tired, I don't want to do it anymore, I want to give up! I can't even take care of myself right now but I still have to take care of my son. I'm usually so positive and happy, I always try to look on the bright side and usually I feel strong, but I just can't anymore, I can't do it. WHY DOES EVERYTHING HAVE TO BE SO HARD? Am I being punished for something I did in a past life? Or do I really just plain old suck? Something MUST be wrong with me. Stuff like this doesn't happen to other people CONSTANTLY, but it does to me. I have been through three jobs since July and I didn't quit or get fired from a single one; I get laid off. God, I just don't want to try anymore...