was it really a mistake?

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i fell in love with a guy i'd known for about 6 years. he joined the marines a year before i joined the air force. when he was shipped to iraq, we talked almost everyday. before he left, we had gotten really close but just as friends. then while he was gone, he started telling me he loved me and wanted to be with me when he came home. that i was everything to him. when he did some home, we spent the whole weekend together before i had to go back to base. then a couple months later, i find out i'm prego. by then, he and i had stopped talking because apparently he had a girlfriend while he was with me. go figure. when i called to tell him he came up to my base and we decided to go with an abortion. really bad idea i know. but i did it. we haven't really talked in a while but at first it seemed like things were gonna be okay. i still think about him all the tme and i do still lvoe him. i feel like i'm not gonna be able to love anyone the same or as much as i did him. was it mistake for me to love him?