its time to clear clutter from my heart...

I think the worse thing I picked up.. was swearing, and learning to hate...
I use to hurt alot but I used to never truely hate, partly because I did not really know how bad I really had it.. The Saying ignorance is bliss is so true...

I been doing my hardest and best to also count my blessings. Look at the good things, and try to turn the lemons into lemonade...

I also tend to come across as smarty pants at times to people... or worse..
Because of my racey responces and humor.

The other thing I picked up from people I guess is I I seem to flirt when I am doing my humor and jokes, but I do not realise it.. as so me it is just joking.. I am not really interested in romance, or dating...

I been working very hard to turn things around, and Praying for G-d to help me as well.... He helped me do a Dramatic turn around in middleschool, I am praying that I can step up to the plate and work with G-d to do a miracle turn around again.

My biggest issue is I get mouthy,... and the rest is health injuries from serious injuries... That is why I get mouthy I am anger and hurting I always was outspoken, but I never had a negative mouth on me, but living with troubled teens and growing up in a foster care group home. I had alot of nasty, snotty, rude habits rub off onto me that I was not willing to pick up and accept.. I did not know how much it influenced my own thoughts until suddenly I am mouthing off or stating so and so is a ... naughty word.... or find myself in the he said she said game.. and I am like wait this is not me?....

And my behavior at all.. This the energy my body is soaking up like sponge they are putting out.. and its a common problem with highly empathic and caring people to be the most prone to this...

Take time to cleanse oneself, heal oneself... And to remind oneself to be aware of this actions, so you can stop yourself the moment its happening...

At least the only time I really have the mouth issue is when I try to talk to my parents about grandpas old house.. I get in such a rage over this because they brought the house for me to live in in year 2002.. Promised to transport me to a job and I would pay gas money.. but they never transported me.. so now they complain how they are going broke... But yet they spend two weeks in mexico and go out shopping and out to eat all the time... So, I am angry over the poor choices my family is making, and about how they kept me out of the railroading career by denying me a drivers licence. If I got that job it would have been 20 dollars an hour starting people 10-12 hr day... 9 years later if I held that job good. I definately would have had that house paid off. I do not go out to eat, my expenses would only go to the house utlities and cat and dog food, and their care... and to pay someone to help clean my house... with 33 family members all on the same road it would not be to hard to pay one of them to help do a chore...

So, that is why I become full of rage and lose control.. and I get upset at myself for it, as usually I am the highly disciplined one.. that no matter how mad I get I will still always be able to calm down and be in control my own actions, and what I say...

Somewhere down the line my verbal energy became a serious challenge to deal with socializing at all is a challenge. Take care, and I pray G-d helps you succeed in improving what you are working on and healing from. I know I will be healed in time...

- DNatureofDTrain

good for you,Zelmarq.life will be easy if you clear clutter from you heart.too much thoughts will make you tired. you need to be refreshed

one big step starts with a baby step. to start cleaning your clutter you have to make a decision that you want a clean self entirely clean self. i hope and i will pray that you able to do that. i know its hard because i am still on that process but i am sure that with the grace of God you will be able to do it. keep the faith high. aim for God-like person in us. be blessed.

Very impressive discussion Zelmarq! Yeah, I always believe that from time to time we need to make amends with our lives and reconcile with the Creator. Why should we wait for trials and difficulties to call out to Him? I myself has a lot of cleansing to do and I thank God for helping me through with it. It's just so peaceful having done it...

this is a powerful declaration teh. and i pray that you would do this for His glory. and when you do this, i know HE will be happy.but mind you, the enemy will always entice and deceive you.. so watch and pray.. me too. hehe

I always believe that the best life philosophy when dealing with our mind and soul, is to swallow and throat in "acceptance is the best healer". To physically centralize our oxygen and energy be back on its origin point and value. Ganging up our own blood, nerves, brain and mind to fight with our own soul will never win and out of gaining circle.

Whatever medium exist to solve it, it doesn't matter; as the ultimate decision maker is our soul that really fixed and fits with a faculty of noble power. To make believe is our brain function but to make belief is solely depends on our soul. I do works for my life to my utmost level as humankind, next is to place my hopes and God will determine for which one is the best for me, even though it might be bitterness that has been specifically designed for me~ I have to accept it, as it is the best for me. Acquiesce is acceptance and acceptance is the best healer.

Hi,
are you going to be a Nun?have you lost your faith in good times. have gone to the other side of the world? your words mankes me feel like these. its good to be like that sometimes. and people remember god the most when they are in deep trouble otherwise they tend to forget about him. we get back things the way we have done them. time doesn't stay at apoint it revovles around the person. sometimes are good and others are bad. but if we speak the right and do the same then at bad times we will be affected less...:)