A new sign of an old illness...

Hey sweets...........what concerns me most about your post is your feeling of becoming a 'worthless nothing'. Don't I know!
And I'm not going to give you a pep talk or anything else that will just waste your time, as I know very well how resistent we are to well meaning crap when we are deep in depression.
BUT
I will give you a link that I hope you will check out. It helped me...........
http://www.psychologyinfo.com/depression/help.html
My thoughts and prayers are with you.

SNAP OUT OF IT!!!!!

I feel the exact same way to be honest. My mother every morning comes up stairs to make sure I'm taking my anti-depressants. I've had so many people say, "Let me help you." "I can fix you." Not one has. If i can't fix myself then how can others fix me? Are you taking any tablets, because when i take a particular tablet (which doesn't actually make me feel any better) i end up sleeping for 16-18 hours. (So i'm taking it regularly to wear the effects off again).

I suppose atleast you could do a fake smile. But then people don't poke around me because they think i'm unhappy. They KNOW i'm unhappy, they just don't understand why. Neither do I. But then they bug me..

Wake up!! lol I have these same feelings and tiredness...I am on Zoloft that evens these swings out...You are not!!! crazy, and people meaning well, have no damn idea what they are taking about!! If you had an infection, would you take anti-biotics? Well, then, why not an anti-depressant?!! There is NO shame in asking for help..Depression does hurt!! not only yourself but others that love you. I have been dealing with this for years..my children have inherited the same disease...they too take meds..It is a chemical imbalance and nothing to do with crazy!! Some people take vitamin b shots because they have a deficiency, or vitamins to prevent things...same thing with my zoloft..It does help!!! Wish you the best...

Hi Stormy, I'm sorry about this new symptom in your depression. My depression has always involved sleep. I'd sleep the days away didn't know what day it was nor did I care. Unlike u I never had people check on me ( besides my husband) so I covered my head and slept as much as I could for 5 years. I now take effexor and clonezapam I still crave sleep but not constantly. maybe in a way it's good u have people hovering over u, at least u know they care and are there for u. Liz

This is so very sad, I have been there before, I actually tell myself to be positive just talk myself into it.

I'm sure you probably have already done everything in the book so I won't suggest anything.

Aww--come on now don't say or even think you're worthless....and here's a big virtual hug for ya ((((((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))




and snap out of it


To be honest I haven't been "myself" for quite awhile either. I used to be very disciplined and got things done and never procrastinated about anything, but now I have the "I'll do it tomorrow" attitude and often don't do my planned things even the next day. I too seem to be sleeping more when I used to get by on just six hours of sleep...now I sleep 8 or 9 which is considered "normal" but just not like me and it takes me forever to haul my azz out of bed...yet ironically when I know I should go to bed, I don't want to...I've always been a night owl, but my hours are really getting bizarre, even for me.

Stormy! “I am on my way to becoming the worthless nothing that I feel like I've always been...” What? No, no, you are a precious gem my dear, don’t talk like that!

I suffer from depression, I have all my life and I didn’t realise just how bad it was until I saw my doctor and she prescribed antidepressants for me which I did not want to take but she convinced me to give them a shot for a month. Thank God, I did! I finally feel how ‘normal’ people do! I went back to the doctor and told her this is a miracle, how can a little pill make such a difference? She said, “It will do that if you have an imbalance in your brain which causes you to feel depressed most of the time”We worked out that for me; it is genetic because my mother and sister are miserable most of the time too.

I am not advocating medication I just wanted to share my little story to let you know that I appreciate what you are going through because I’ve lived it on a regular basis since childhood. I had a crappy upbringing from an unstable mother so that didn’t help and I can relate to the feelings of being worth nothing, zero, nada.

Now that those little chemicals are all in their appropriate places, I know that I have a lot to give to this world and that I am an okay person just as I am and there are some who care about me and so are you Stormy, my God, you are so gifted! Look at your gifts and the good things in your life. By the way have you seen a doctor? I started seeing a psychologist a 76 year old bohemian woman who works barefoot and flies aeroplanes, she is absolutely brilliant!

Do you have someone you can talk to? You have me for a start, anytime...

Hi Little_stormy. That was a nice rant. I can understand a little on the sleeping through depression. It is sort of my MO. I have learned to live with it, as it sounds you have. Just try hard to remember that each time someone tries to help, each time someone comes up with a new idea to snap you out of it, they only want what they think is best for you, and by doing that they care about you. I hope you have a couple smiles tomorrow that are real!

Stormy,

I'm assuming that you are on some kind of medication that is not working or should be replaced? I've been on anti-depressents for like 20 years but never experienced the type of depression you are experiencing. I don't know your history and I wish I could say something to brighten your day. The truth is, only you can decide what to do. So I won't offer any advice unless you want me to but I do hope you are able to get a handle on it soon. Hugsss

Leenie