Love Affair With The Self
By celticeagle
@celticeagle (189833)
Boise, Idaho
June 18, 2011 6:57pm CST
I have severe depression with social anxiety. I am ashamed of myself. I don't like who I am. But there is a part of me that enjoys my humor, loves the way my kids will listen and enjoy my stories of when I was young. Still like to make folks laugh and I like that about myself. And I do feel like I have some good years left in me.
I wonder how others look at themselves. DO you have a crush on yourself? Love yourself? Don't care what others think or say about you? Love your life and where you have come from and what you have become? Etc.
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@GardenGerty (169448)
• United States
19 Jun 11
There are a lot of things I like about myself, but they are counterbalanced by all the things I dislike. What I realize, though, is that I have the power to change those things I do not like. I do like my sense of humor and my quirky creativeness. I like my intelligence and knowledge-ability. I think I need to start making some lists for myself to help me change some things that I dislike.
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@GardenGerty (169448)
• United States
19 Jun 11
I probably used a wrong word or a made up word. I know a lot of things from a wide variety of fields, and I learn new things very easily. I do need to follow through with some improvement plans though, as I know I will be much happier.
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@celticeagle (189833)
• Boise, Idaho
19 Jun 11
Knowledge-ability? Sounds like you have a plan.
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@ANTIQUELADY (36440)
• United States
19 Jun 11
I have alot of faults but am aware of all of them. I do not have a crush on myself but don't think i turned out too bad. It just took me a long time to get where i am.

@celticeagle (189833)
• Boise, Idaho
19 Jun 11
But you like yourself? Took me a while too.
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@ANTIQUELADY (36440)
• United States
19 Jun 11
I'm glad u got where u wanted to be. I don't always like myself but i'm stuck w/me. So is everybody else, lol.
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@celticeagle (189833)
• Boise, Idaho
19 Jun 11
And I thought this was my discussion but I have someone else answering all my responses. Oddballs.
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@makatas (1098)
• Greece
19 Jun 11
Hello there.
There are certain moments I find myself to be not fun, ugly or just being in weird terms with myself.
There are other times I can see I am a polite guy, decent and humorous, with a good family.
I am not in love with myself, not at all. However, I can say most of the times I am happy about what I have become, and I can see I make my parents proud.
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@celticeagle (189833)
• Boise, Idaho
19 Jun 11
Being happy with who you have become is important. Good for you!
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@Anne18 (11029)
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27 Feb 12
I think my children think I'm a naggy old hag who keeps nagging them to do there jobs etc and keep moaning at them.
Myself, I don't always think I'm a very good mother, but the last few years I have actually found peace within myself and am happy with my life and more importantly I'm happy within myself and think this is the best part of my life even though I moan about the children alot and nag them
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@celticeagle (189833)
• Boise, Idaho
28 Feb 12
Well i think that kids think we are demented no matter what we do until they get older. Then they either know it to be totally true or realize you knew what you were talking about.
@JenInTN (27514)
• United States
19 Jun 11
I love who you are. You are always so witty and honest. You do have a lot to offer.
As for the way I view myself..well..I never feel like I do enough. I feel like there is something that I'm supposed to be doing or getting ready for, but I can not for the life of me figure it out. I want to learn more and do more. It is a little maddening sometimes..lol. Going back to school has helped me focus my thoughts...kind of therapy.
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@celticeagle (189833)
• Boise, Idaho
19 Jun 11
Yep, honest til it hurts. That's me! Thanks. You will figure it all out. Hopefully it will come to you.
@PointlessQuestions (15397)
• United States
19 Jun 11
Going back to school can really give you your center. It did me. I didn't graduate, because of car problems and financial problems.. but what I learned I applied to my working at home. I wouldn't be as good at doing what I do if I didn't go to technical college for business office technology. i like who I am too.. and I think everyone should love who they are.. how can we expect others to love us when we don't love ourselves. I think when we love ourselves it spreads out and washes over everyone we come into contact with.

@KrauseHome (36445)
• United States
14 Oct 11
Personally I think there are many out there who can relate with the way that you are describing how you feel about yourself. There are many out there in the corporate world who are making over $100,000 a yr. that seem to be quite dissatified with their life as well. Too many times I think there are too many pressures put on people and within ourselves. Personally I think we are often our own worst judge even if others around us feel differently for sure.
As for me, I have my struggles. There are days I Love who I am, and what I am wanting to accomplish and then there are days I really wish because of the Medical problems that I could be able to do more, and wish I could disappear. So I continue to do the Best that I can.
@ajithlal (14716)
• India
24 Jul 12
I think you should try to speak people whom you are close to. I think you should try to remove the social anxiety slowly. I think we should love ourselves and try to respect and love ourselves and then only we will be able to love others and respect others. When we love ourselves most probably we will have more confidence of talking to others and making friendships with others. I would suggest you to make first step by talking to one friend and then you will be able to make different friends. 
@dont_pick_your_nose (2279)
• Australia
21 Jun 11
Apart from your diagnosise it sounds like you are having a great time and that is what life is all about. I hope your on the right treatment for your illness. Anxiety can be paralysing and you dont need a feeling holding you back when there are so many other things and people that will do it without you being able to stop it. Or even see it coming.
@_sketch_ (5742)
• United States
19 Jun 11
You are trying to define yourself with the wrong things. If we choose to see the world and ourselves through the lens of the ego, we can never be satisfied. You are not a comparison to anyone or anything else. Stop labeling yourself and just be. Namaste.
@blue65packer (11826)
• United States
23 Jun 11
There are things about myself I like. Like my quicky personality. My sense of humor. That I am a harder worker. I love animals. I am a good friend. What I don't like about myself is I am morbidly obese. I worry to much what other people think of me. I have low self-confidence. I suffer from moderate depression. If I didn't have depression I know my confidence would be so much better1 Then I could lose some wieght and like myself better! I have a constant love hate relationship with myself and I hate it!
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@celticeagle (189833)
• Boise, Idaho
24 Jun 11
Join the crowd! I am all of the above. Do you have S.A.D. as well? No fun. I can tell others what they need to do but can't do it myself.
@marapplestiffy (2182)
• Philippines
19 Jun 11
I love myself
, and I believe in myself, I hope that I will never change my view of me because I think that how I perceive me is the most important weighted perception of all....I hope that you will cure your depression, I think that you're a really great person, having been able to interact with you here in myLot...you've given me really meaningful advice on a lot of things....so, I believe that you will find the power to see yourself in a good and healthy way...
, and I believe in myself, I hope that I will never change my view of me because I think that how I perceive me is the most important weighted perception of all....I hope that you will cure your depression, I think that you're a really great person, having been able to interact with you here in myLot...you've given me really meaningful advice on a lot of things....so, I believe that you will find the power to see yourself in a good and healthy way...
@celticeagle (189833)
• Boise, Idaho
27 Jul 12
Accepting ourselves is a very big thing. Balance is very important. I feel really lost without my counselor. She helped keep me balanced.
@PointlessQuestions (15397)
• United States
19 Jun 11
Depression is said to be anger turned inward. I think this happens when we give ourselves away and forget who we really are. I think when we come to accept ourselves as we are, then we can be proud of whom we have become. I am not taking any antidepressants anymore.. I've been on them for about 20 years and was diagnosed with major depression disorder. I was meek and weak back then. I wouldn't stand up for me back then. I stood up for others and was loyal to them but I was never loyal to myself. I always put myself last. Things have changed over time and I like who I am now. I have balance, and balance has cured my depression.
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@PointlessQuestions (15397)
• United States
19 Jun 11
Hi Celticeagle,
I like who I am as a person. Everyone isn't going to like me, and everyone who is nice to me isn't my friend, but that's their problem, not mine. I can look at myself in the mirror and like who I see. I'm not one who likes to stir up a hornets nest, but if one comes swarming around me, I'm not going to run from it. I will behave in a way that is right for the situation and right for me. Others can like it or lump it.
It has taken me a long time to actually see my own worth. Now that I do, no one will steal that from me again... :).













