I'm Really Sad Right Now
By ronadelle
@ronadelle (1547)
Philippines
September 26, 2011 8:37am CST
I got a message through facebook about my beloved aunt who passed away last Sept. 25. I'm so close to her. She's the best aunt I've got. She's the one who helped us get through life when my father was having an affair a decade ago and encouraged us to be strong. She was the one who brought us to know Jesus, taught us many good things and who was always there to support and comfort us. I love her and my tears can't stop falling right now while I'm typing these words. I will really miss her. I'll miss going to her whenever I miss her. I will miss her smile, her being a second mom to me and I'll definitely miss training with her in singing. I can't imagine that she's gone now. That I'll never gonna see her again. But inspite all this, I'm thankful that she gave us time to say goodbye to her while she was battling with cancer. I so love her. I will never forget her. My heart is so grieving right now. 
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@epicure35 (2814)
• United States
27 Sep 11
I am so sorry for your loss of your dear aunt. I understand your sorrow and loss and even moreso does Jesus, our Lord and Savior. Your dearest aunt was His blessing in your life because He so loves you. God promises us no more loss or tears when we get to Heaven. His promise is His Word and His Word is His promise and it will not come back void. "God watches over His Word to perform it." This separation is so sad, but it is temporal. When you are reunited in Heaven, it will be for eternity. No more sorrow, tears, loss, just joy and feasting!
@ronadelle (1547)
• Philippines
30 Sep 11
Amen to all that you said. There's nothing more comforting but by the words of God. I'm blessed for reading these words. thank you.
@Cricket127 (548)
• United States
27 Sep 11
Hi. HUG!!! I am so sorry for your recent loss. She sounded like a fantastic woman and she will be missed.
If it helps any, I too, have lost several people in my life and there are times when I still feel that sudden jolt of the loss. Our most recent was my aunt (by marriage) who lost her 20 year off-and-on battle with cancer this past August. Like your aunt, she was there for me when I was pregnant and we just had a great time reminiscing about what we went through and how we dealt with it. I will miss her and I am grateful that she was a part of my life.
So, what can you do? Can you talk with someone who knew her as you did or can at least appreciate her? Try to remember the special things, events, or conversations and perhaps write them down so they will never be forgotten. There will be some tears but hopefully some smiles will not be far behind.
HUG!
@Cricket127 (548)
• United States
28 Sep 11
Hi! Not a problem as we all need to take a few minutes and help one another.
Have you seen the Incredibles (2004)? Edna always makes me laugh. :-)
Be well!
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@ronadelle (1547)
• Philippines
27 Sep 11
I'm very touched with your words. I will do that coz that will really help me smile again.
@SIMPLYD (90722)
• Philippines
27 Sep 11
When one is battling with cancer, we are somewhat readied for it. But when the time comes for that person to die eventually, we would still be very much affected by it. That's normal, specially when that person is very close to us.
I condole with you in your grief. Just be happy that her pains has finally ended. 
I condole with you in your grief. Just be happy that her pains has finally ended. @SIMPLYD (90722)
• Philippines
28 Sep 11
That's how we should be in front of a dying person. We should appear cheerful, as if she is our same friend. This makes them strong in a way too.
Only when we are out of our friend's sight can we cry. 
@ronadelle (1547)
• Philippines
27 Sep 11
You know, it was my wedding the last time I see her but did not get a chance to her for it was a busy day. So when I gave our wedding invitation to her, she was lying in bed and was feeling pain all around. I knew in my heart and mind that that was the last time I could touch and hug her. She was crying the time she saw me coming. I hugged her and my husband prayed for her. The prayer was not about for her healing at all but to ease the pain and give her peace. I managed not to cry in front of her that time. I just hugged her and kissed her and told her that I love her so much. By the time I stepped out of the house, that's when my tears fell. My husband and I knew that she's gonna die soon. Yet, she waited and attended my wedding. I'm thankful enough now that she's finally free from all the pain.
@fabsprecious (1565)
• United States
27 Sep 11
My condolences go to you and your loved ones in this moment of sadness. My aunt also passed away a few years back fighting cancer, I know what a difficult time you must be going through. But it helps to remember the good times you had with her, the happy memories. I know that she is looking down on you right now and hoping that this grieving passes soon, because I am pretty sure that she wouldn't want to see your tears. That's what my mom used to tell me, when my aunt and my grandma passed away. But it's difficult how can you hold back all these tears.
I am so sorry for your loss.
@ronadelle (1547)
• Philippines
27 Sep 11
Yes, she never liked it when I'm crying and I know that she is doing her best to make me stop yet I just can't stop right now. She will be cherished forever. I will really miss her.
@science86 (14)
• China
28 Sep 11
Ronadelle , I am so sorry to hear that. I think this is the worst thing in a person's live. I had the same felling several years ago, that's because my maternal grandmother,she passed away by an accident when my first year in Collage school. I am very sad because we can never see her again and even god doesn't give us time to say goodbye.After that accident ,I dreamed her many many times and when I awake I always cry.
when,many years passed, i always remember her with my mother. my mother always talk stories about her and we all miss her very much.
@ronadelle (1547)
• Philippines
30 Sep 11
So sorry to hear about you mom. I'm hoping that you're all okay now. As for me, I'll be moving on because I know that's what my aunt wants everybody to be doing. ;)
@ronadelle (1547)
• Philippines
30 Sep 11
Thanks there dear friend. She was buried this morning but I wasn't able to go for it was far. I just prayed for her and for her son.
@granite_butterfly (448)
• Canada
27 Sep 11
Grieving is a process all of us experience and there is no set time when we stop. The first anniversary of a lost loved one can be tough. Know that you are not alone and may you soon have peace. Please accept my condolences. @ronadelle (1547)
• Philippines
27 Sep 11
Thanks granite. I love what you said and I could really use that right now.
@ronadelle (1547)
• Philippines
27 Sep 11
Thanks for the big hug dear friend. I may not be seeing you all but your words really are touching my heart. God bless you.
@ronadelle (1547)
• Philippines
27 Sep 11
Yes, I really intended to write down my feelings. Because I'm sure that you and other fellow mylotters will extend blessings and comforting words which I really need. Thank you.
@tessa9 (1085)
• Philippines
27 Sep 11
I'm sorry for you lost. I can only imagine losing someone so dearly. Just think about the fact that she is already in a better place. A place much better than this world full of cynical people. Just pray for her and maybe who knows, maybe she can her you and is guiding you right now.
@ronadelle (1547)
• Philippines
27 Sep 11
Thanks. She always guided, supported and loved me when she was still alive and I'm sure she will never stopped on doing so.
@viju0410 (2286)
• India
27 Sep 11
hi, my deepest condolences and prays the soul rest in peace. Sorry that she's suffering from cancer. But at least she has passed away peacefully, leaving behind her teaching to you. It is also a truth in life God take away those whom we consider so close to us... pray that you get strong heart to bear the loss.
@Triple0 (1904)
• Australia
27 Sep 11
I'm sorry for the loss of your beloved aunt. I know it's hard to lose someone who you love so dearly and have shared such memorable moments with in the past but life never lasts. Be grateful that your aunt will go to a better place and she'll always remain alive within your heart. It's sad to watch people around you, people you have known for so long pass away right before your eyes but that's the nature of life and we should be prepared to accept fate. Hope God is watching over her right now. 
@rollylolly (2843)
• India
27 Sep 11
I am so sad to read your post . Hope Jesus gives you the strength to bear this loss . May her soul rest in peace . My heart felt condolences to you and your family .
@johnbrainlot (177)
• Greece
27 Sep 11
it is a very sad story that should give you strength and keep your morale up. until morale improves you can try to be happy and things will always be better.
@ladygator (3465)
• United States
26 Sep 11
Aw, so sorry for your loss. (Hugs) Losing someone close to you is so hard.I hope you feel better soon.But this time has to run its course. You will feel better eventually, you will always miss her. After you take the time out to mourn her, you soon will be able to celebrate her life.
@ronadelle (1547)
• Philippines
27 Sep 11
Amen to that! I hope that I will get to smile when I remember her but right now it's all tears and heart breaking. But I know, I'll eventually feel better like what you said. THank you so much.
@00fear (3216)
• United States
26 Sep 11
We are all heading that direction. I have lost someone that was the same. My grandma. Although she wasn't an aunt but she also helped us a lot. My dad and my mom would always argue a lot over little things. This happens because of my dad's life as a kid. He would get stress a lot. So much that for a little thing he would mention about divorcing my mom. Thanks to my grandma she stopped him from doing such thing and to not just think about them but for us too. Thanks to her, my parents are still together and now getting along. When I heard the phone ring at 5:00am somewhere in March 2008, I couldn't believe that she passed away, I was like "no," thinking it. She looked to healthy for her to leave.. She also was battling with cancer, but I am also thankful we got to say goodbye and spend our last holidays with her. She would tell us to have fun and be happy because it is what she wanted.
@ronadelle (1547)
• Philippines
27 Sep 11
Yeah, I'm now feeling what you felt before. It's hard to imagine that they're gone. That they will never be seen again but I'm also thankful that she finally laid to rest and now happy in heaven. Thanks for your words.
@3SnuggleBunnies (16374)
• United States
27 Sep 11
I'm sorry for your loss of your Aunt who was so dear to you.
@ronadelle (1547)
• Philippines
27 Sep 11
She really is a very lovable person. I will really miss her.
@mods196621 (3652)
• Philippines
26 Sep 11
Condolence to you ronadelle.. You have the right to mourn now and remember those things she has done to you when she was still here. Sadness really comes to all of us in this situations and time. But let us accept that we are all pass away too in our own time. The right time for us. Now you can be sad but you can be happy to all the goodness she has done for you in order to be a good person now. You are lucky that you have her in your life during the time that father left you for any reason. Just try to pray for her and be happy after the time of sadness.
@ronadelle (1547)
• Philippines
27 Sep 11
Thanks mods. I am really blessed that God gave me an aunt like her. She'll be cherished. Don't worry, I may be in grief right now and cries every now and then but I'll get through this.
@writersolutions (33)
• India
26 Sep 11
Don't be sad for anything at anytime. Be bold and face the problem with courage. No one in this world is prefect and need to fight to succeed in dreams.
@ronadelle (1547)
• Philippines
27 Sep 11
I'm sorry but your words are not good for me right now. I want to grieve for now and cry the sadness all out and then after that I'll move on.
@cowgirl03051979 (918)
• United States
26 Sep 11
im sorry for your loss it is always hard when you lose a loved one when i was a little girl i lost my great grandmother and i still miss her so much she was always there for me and she was the one i was always able to run to just to get away from my overbearing parents and grandparents i remember she always used to take me for walks down this old gravel road and she let me eat raw sugar handfulls at a time but i know one day i will see her again she is now an angel in heaven
@ronadelle (1547)
• Philippines
27 Sep 11
Praise the Lord for knowing that your great grandmother is also a good and lovable person to you. Thanks for your words of comfort
