My bad...

@saphrina (31552)
South Africa
November 22, 2011 3:09am CST
I just don't know my sweeties. Today, i read things i don't like, see things i don't like and hear things that will drive any sane person, INSANE. Things that make me doubt and wonder. I hate feeling like this. Like a damn old wet rag, which was used to wash ones floors or something. I cannot get why things seem to upset me so much lately. Hell, i'm not 5 anymore, for pete's sake. Am i getting old, or am i just use to throwing a tantrum, hoping and praying that all this bad will go away. Maybe its the damn weathers fault or maybe i trust those close to me too much. Whichever way i look at it, i just cannot shake this unholy negative feeling that keep popping up. Or its this damn devil on my shoulder whispering all this crap in my ear. If only i can get hold of him and strangle him or something. On days like days, what will you do to cheer yourself up? I cannot go out as its going to rain, AGAIN. Now what do i damn do?
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@thesids (22180)
• Bhubaneswar, India
22 Nov 11
Hi Saphrina You do Need Special Care and some attention... love ? Affection should be the right word as Love normally gets wrongly interpreted.
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@Sreekala (34312)
• India
22 Nov 11
Sidhu, Yes, she need some special care.
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@tamirs (1807)
• Philippines
22 Nov 11
She needs a "Super Mega Special Care" .
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@saphrina (31552)
• South Africa
23 Nov 11
Thanx my sweeties. I've got such awesome friends here. Better than in real life and that's a new one for me. Sids sweetie, let them interpret all they want.
• Philippines
22 Nov 11
Hi Dear, It's raining here and I need Human jacket Maybe you need to use the new set of whips and a bottle of vodka will help you hope you will feel better miss yah
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@jaiho2009 (39142)
• Philippines
22 Nov 11
bhaby, Where can we buy that human jacket? or...straight jacket?
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@saphrina (31552)
• South Africa
25 Nov 11
mmmm, my human jacket is a bit far, but we do try to behave, you know, sweetie.
• United States
22 Nov 11
I'm super sensitive so I never feel bad about things that tick me off. Now that I Know I have the right to all my feelings , I express All of them. So even if it is petty to others , I don't care.It pi$4es me off So Be It! the best way to improve my mood is by either seeing a movie or playing music. Me? I love, love a good action film. A film where there are explosions and car chases! Or to rock out to some heavy metal. Take some Metaliica and I am Fine!So think about what makes you feel better and do it!
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• United States
24 Nov 11
Good. I'm glad you are feeling better.I'm feeling better too. I was a little down but I'm better too.
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@saphrina (31552)
• South Africa
25 Nov 11
That's great sweetie. Maybe we are just tired as it is then end of the year or something.
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@saphrina (31552)
• South Africa
23 Nov 11
Hi sweetie. Oh i expressed every darn feeling i had yesterday. I actually thought i was going to go nuts or something. After a good tantrum, reading my book and giving myself a pep talk i have to say i feel better, thank you.
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@Sreekala (34312)
• India
22 Nov 11
Dear saphy, I hope this will help you positively. We, ladies do not need a particular reason to get moody sometimes. Be calm and take long breath. You will be alright soon dear. Myself, it is difficult to cheer me up when I am moody. Only time can heal it…
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@Sreekala (34312)
• India
22 Nov 11
Sidhu, it will be really nice if you can spend some days with her.... but you are too busy with your clients. I know you can make me smile becuase you are my sweet brother.
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@thesids (22180)
• Bhubaneswar, India
22 Nov 11
Hi didi I can feel that dear saphrina is going through a bad patch these days and she needs someone who would listen to her... I wish I had her chat Id and I could spend a day or even days together to help her.... As for you, I know, I can make you smile many a times but again, as you say... it mostly depends on your mood that day
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@thesids (22180)
• Bhubaneswar, India
22 Nov 11
I will let my clients off for those days as I really need our Saphrina back the way she used to be. May not be the right place to share this but I have felt deep pain all across her discussions since the last few months... and I feel concerned...
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@inu1711 (5285)
• Romania
22 Nov 11
I'm sorry to see you so upset AGAIN. Don't you think you have to change a few things in your life? This happens too often, I'm afraid. There are a lot of things to take your mind away from what upsets you now. How about watching a good old movie that you always loved to watch? Or trying to do some cleaning or put things in order in your closets? (this will surely move your mind from what is upsetting you now!) Me, I would spend some time with my dog, trying to enjoy the moments when she plays with me and do stupid things.
@saphrina (31552)
• South Africa
25 Nov 11
Hi sweetie. Well, as i feel better and the rain left for at least one day, it's washing and cleaning time. I have send you some rain, should be there sometime tomorrow.
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@inu1711 (5285)
• Romania
25 Nov 11
Oh, I can't wait for the rain to come! But the weather guy didn't say anything about precipitations.
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@inu1711 (5285)
• Romania
22 Nov 11
I almost forgot: don't you want to send that RAIN to my place? Here we've been waiting for the rain for months. We need a rain badly, you know?
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@enelym001 (8322)
• Philippines
22 Nov 11
Hi saphi, It's normal to feel that way when we see or read things we don't like. I wanted to suggest to go shopping because ladies like us forget all these crazy stuff on our mind when we do shopping, but okay it's raining there so you can't go out. Better make yourself a li'l busy at home. Hope you get well and get over the negative things that's running through your mind
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@saphrina (31552)
• South Africa
23 Nov 11
Hi sweetie. Well, i had time to read my book and spend time with me. We had an argument unfortunately now we are pissed at each other. One cannot win in todays life, you know.
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@saphrina (31552)
• South Africa
28 Nov 11
Sounds like damn hard work to me, sweetie.
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@Jlyn10 (11966)
• Malaysia
27 Nov 11
Hi saphy Maybe you can't win today, but there's still tomorrow and every other days.
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@GardenGerty (157675)
• United States
23 Nov 11
Turn off the news and all these things that are pouring into your head. Light some scented candles, settle back with a cup of tea and read a good magazine of your choice. It that does not shake the rainy day blues, put on some upbeat music, choose another beverage and find something that you want to do but have not had the chance. Cut off all outside news and noise and you will be much happier in no time. Third choice, shut off the lights, take a warm bath or shower and crawl into a warm comfy bed. Take a nap.
@saphrina (31552)
• South Africa
25 Nov 11
Hi sweetie. Luckily the power and internet was off, so i couldn't read the news lately. Anyway, a warm bath, a good book and mom's nagging did the trcik as well as a shining day after all that damn rain. Thank you and have fun mylotting.
@ElicBxn (63252)
• United States
22 Nov 11
I read or craft or find another distraction, or even sleep... when I'm stressed and upset, I tend to go to sleep - go figure...
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@saphrina (31552)
• South Africa
23 Nov 11
Hi sweetie. I am horrible at crafting, as for sleeping, even to damn moody for that.
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@derek_a (10874)
23 Nov 11
Sorry to hear how your're feeling. I think sometimes that the media will make things worse. They only seem to report all the doom and gloom - of how terrible things are, and yet, if they just stopped and thought for a moment. If they focused on being more upbeat and positive, then us people, as listeners would pick up on this. Wouldn't if be far better to have people optimistic and positive? Would this bring the world into a better position economically. Doom and gloom in the stock markets often causes catastrophy. What would it be like with a more positive attitude.. I know that everything has an opposite. The happier we feel, the lower we can go on the roller-coaster of life. But if we detach and look at how we can make a difference and not dwell on negative or positive, surely we'd be more centered and in a stronger position in life.. Just me thinking.... _Derek
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@saphrina (31552)
• South Africa
25 Nov 11
Hi sweetie. Yip, the media just have it in them to really upset people. For the life of me i cannot see why we always have to read and see horrible things, even if it is like everyday life for most people on this planet. Humans are such a damn disappointment to me. But, i like the way you think though. Maybe if i start ignoring all those negative things, i may be happier each day. I have a damn lot to be thankful for, but no, what do Saphy do? Tantrum. I mean really.
@p1kef1sh (45681)
22 Nov 11
If you are very gentle you could always find your whips and ...... who knows?!
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@saphrina (31552)
• South Africa
25 Nov 11
For you, i chose the studded whips sweetie. Just let me get my shoes first.
@vandana7 (98989)
• India
22 Nov 11
Ok moppet, what's up? Yeah, I feel like that at times myself. But I try to come out of it trying to think of things that interest me. For example I love singing (believe it its shrieking and in any event it is old Hindi numbers), but I think I am doing a splendid job at that some notes, and that pulls me out some and then I watch some television program, or if I cant, then I dream about my future. I think planning for future is one of my favorite pastimes. There cant be any unhappiness that we can foresee. So it is all too rosy. Like I plan that when I have enough monies I will have a small house with a big garden. I will have all types of fruits, and I will even grow vegetables. I plan my garden. God alone knows whether such dreams will materialize. But if they do, I have a fairly good plan ready to implement them within short time. LOL Yeah, that keeps my mind away from a lot of junk.
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@saphrina (31552)
• South Africa
23 Nov 11
Hello Ma. Well, either age or just full of crap lately. Pick your choose. I am definitely moving in with you then. Get me a room that over look the garden, okay. And i don't want a pink room. Cream will be fine, thank you. See ya.
@jennyze (7029)
• Indonesia
23 Nov 11
I told myself a long time ago that at one time I need to do thing my own way and too damn with the others' feeling or views. That way, I hope I can live a normal life, once again...
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@saphrina (31552)
• South Africa
25 Nov 11
Hi sweetie. I just wonder if we will ever live normal lives, you know?
• Valdosta, Georgia
22 Nov 11
I'm sorry you are feeling so badly. =( I think everyone has days like this sometimes. It is hard to break it and get out of the negative cycle as I call it. The weather doesn't help either if it is dark and dreary. I hope you get to feeling better really soon. Here is a hug!
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@saphrina (31552)
• South Africa
25 Nov 11
Hi sweetie. It is hard to get out of it and yes the weather doesn't really seem to help. At least the sun is shining today. Thanx for the hug and have a great day.
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23 Nov 11
Can you concretely decide what is bothering you? Is it a person or a certain situation? Can you not figure out what it is? Maybe it is the rain outside and it is affecting your mood. Try to expose yourself to the things that make you happy. Have you tried finding things that are beautiful to you and doing the things that you truly enjoy. I think we tend to deprive ourselves in order to show how strong we are, but we all need a form of caring and to give back to ourselves.
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@saphrina (31552)
• South Africa
25 Nov 11
Hi sweetie. One thing i am not, is sensitive, but for some reason the news i read each day, what i hear and see, scares the crap out of me or it pisses me off i want to scream. Add to that that my love is so far from me. I am frustrated, bad tempered and just full of damn tantrums lately. I try my best to see the good in people, to see the beauty around me, but people just ruin it for me lately. I am so damn childish, sorry.
@alottodo (3056)
• Australia
22 Nov 11
Oh dear how dreadful to feel like that! I would give the devil a kick on his a*se and send him asunder and into the trash! no one grows old without a tantrum and yet my dear rain or sun shine your life is dear...now for that vodka...where is it?
@saphrina (31552)
• South Africa
23 Nov 11
I kicked his sorry butt sweetie, but i am sure he pinched the damn vodka. I have to admit, tantrums and relaxing afterward helps a lot. Thank you.
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@zralte (4178)
• India
22 Nov 11
Oh saphy, shall I shoot my poisonous arrow at the devil?No...better not, my aim is not that great. My suggestions: Take a hot bath Use a pillow to cover your mouth and scream. Watch comedy on TV or DVD. If all those fails, you can move in with me. 'Misery loves company' is what they say.
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@saphrina (31552)
• South Africa
23 Nov 11
Sure sweetie, get that arrow, i am sure you will hit hom the first time. On the other hand let me move in with you. I can teach you how to aim better. Thanx i feel better today.
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@Jlyn10 (11966)
• Malaysia
27 Nov 11
We all get that sometimes. It's just part of our mood swings and it will go away soon without you even noticing it. What I usually do is watch a movie to shake it off.
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@saphrina (31552)
• South Africa
27 Nov 11
Hi sweetie. Moods and women just don't go hand in hand lately. Next time i will get a thriller, that ought to make me feel better.
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@saphrina (31552)
• South Africa
28 Nov 11
Come watch hell raiser 1 with me, sweetie
@Jlyn10 (11966)
• Malaysia
27 Nov 11
Maybe you're right. Moods and women don't go hand in hand. But everybody has their own kind of mood once in a while. But I usually don't take mine that seriously because when I'm troubled, I always pray to God for comfort. Then I always feel better after that. Yea, a thriller might work. I just love thriller.
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@WakeUpKitty (8694)
• Netherlands
22 Nov 11
Keep your mind busy with something else! Go make something or do a mind-puzzle, seems to me your mind is having overwork. Go make the place where you sit cosy for you in every way you can think out and shut out the world (no radio, newspaper, tv). Today it's about you, not the world that we won't see, understand or even makes us mad, insane, doubt or wonder. I wish you a great day with yourself! See it as quality time for you.
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@saphrina (31552)
• South Africa
23 Nov 11
Hi sweetie. I spend the whole day reading and relaxing and of course talking to my love. That at least helped a bit. Thank you so much and have a great day.
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@khare_1005 (1310)
• India
22 Nov 11
saphy sweat heart you have so many friends around you to cheer you up and still you are feeling low?this is not done sweety. come on give me a smile darling. or i'll make faces so that you laugh and forget all that is happening.
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@saphrina (31552)
• South Africa
23 Nov 11
Hi sweetie. Sometimes friends doesn't always help, sorry. But as for that damn faces, i mean really. Thanx.
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@tamirs (1807)
• Philippines
22 Nov 11
Hi dear saph,I think I know how you feel. Remember how i was days ago? I don't know if i am mad or depress or worried or lonely.I cried the whole night but i don't really know what is making me cry.At morning i woke up looking like Rudolph.Sometimes ill just yell at them whole day and won't talk to them.I think most girls have this time of their lives where in we are being moody and weird ,but not all of the time. Like you said to me before i go to bed that night,i took a warm bath,stay in the bathroom for hours thinking of things and pouring my heart out..I had a shot :-p of hot midnight black coffee then off to bed..Really i had a nice and sounding sleep that night.
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@saphrina (31552)
• South Africa
23 Nov 11
Hi sweetie. Seems i have to try my own advice once in a while. I'm just glad you are feeling better though.
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