Should I appreciate or not?

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My lovely daughter is my caregiver. I have a couple of terminal illnesses between my heart, lungs and kidneys. There was this lady whom I had adopted as mama. Many know of her who knew me before in another lifetime here. Anyway last summer she came unannounced, that part was okay, but I was having a bad day of seizures. Many of mine are vocal. Anyway, Josephine, the lady I called mama, yelled at me to shut up. That got all over Kim. It hurt me too. I wrote her a long letter how I had allowed her to dictate my life to me and how I held my tongue to avoid confrontation. I told her how it hurt me. She wrote one sentence back saying I'm sorry, forgive me. I wrote back and said of course I did forgive her and I loved her. In the mean time I had two bad periods where I became unresponsive. When I was able to stay awake a few minutes one day I asked Kim to call Jo and say I loved her. I was too weak to talk. She said she wanted to come. She went by our house and never stopped. I've been very sick and she ignored me. My daughter contacted her son on FB and told him she didn't appreciate them not bothering with her mother, and to just stay away and don't hurt me anymore. In one way I am glad kim stood up for her mom and in another, I am sad that I will miss her still. I was always like the red headed stepchild, and she made fun of me sometimes, like how I walked and how big I was. Still I loved her and considered it to be just her nature. So now I'm in a quandary. Kim says leave it be. She takes care of me. So do you understand what I feel? The image is my coloring. Sorry it's sideways.