Called Home Makes me Sad
By marcyaz
@Marcyaz (35316)
United States
February 26, 2016 11:53am CST
Five years ago today my husband was called home to his God.
This makes me very sad .
All last night I kept waking up and thinking of how things used to be.
He was so good to me and treated me like a princess. I treated him like a prince and we were very much in Love.
We used to do a lot of things together like going camping, sightseeing and taking his sister different places with us.
She was a widow and only had her brother as family.
I did write about her on the 1st of this month when she passed away and I was sad then but today I am even sadder.
It is difficult when their are two passings in one month.
I miss them so much it hurts me.
The picture is of my husband in his regalia.
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16 responses
@TiarasOceanView (70035)
• United States
26 Feb 16
I wish the photo were a bit bigger to see his face.
He was a very good man and no wonder you miss him so much Marcy.
I understand.
Wish there were some photos also of you, him, and his sister having a good time in places you used to go.
Hugs xo
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I love Rolling Thunders regalia.
@Marcyaz (35316)
• United States
27 Feb 16
@TiarasOceanView
Yes and his American Indian name was Rolling Thunder and he could sound like thunder at times. His regalia is what he used to dance in at the pow wows.
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@Jessicalynnt (50525)
• Centralia, Missouri
27 Feb 16
Some deaths... can still hurt as much as they ever did, perhaps not every day or all of the time, as time passes, but that sharp loss and sense of missing never fully goes away
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@Marcyaz (35316)
• United States
27 Feb 16
@Jessicalynnt You are so right the feeling of loss and sense of missing do not go away.
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@Marcyaz (35316)
• United States
28 Feb 16
@Jessicalynnt
The pain of losing them is less but no my love will never be forgotten as he is always in my heart and I think of him often.
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@Jessicalynnt (50525)
• Centralia, Missouri
27 Feb 16
@Marcyaz I have found they get less, well all of the time/immediate, more and more as time goes on. Or we get used to that being part of how we feel, or something. But totally gone? Never.
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@Hatley (163781)
• Garden Grove, California
28 Feb 16
I know the feelings so well but for me time has helped,..losing ones mate and ones child are the two hardest things I have ever had to bear so y ou have my sympathy indeed. but talk ing about them here I know has helped me. hugs.
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@41CombedaleRoad (5952)
• Greece
26 Feb 16
I am sorry that today is so sad for you, I hope that writing about your husband helped a little. You have shared some wonderful memories with us, you have been a fortunate woman to have shared your life with this loving man.
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@Marcyaz (35316)
• United States
26 Feb 16
@ComberdaleRoad It has helped somewhat writing about my husband. I have wonderful memories and he was so good to me that I really thought we would have a much longer time together.
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@Marcyaz (35316)
• United States
27 Feb 16
@41CombedaleRoad
Very true and my husband used to say we are only on loan but I do wish we had longer together.
@41CombedaleRoad (5952)
• Greece
27 Feb 16
@Marcyaz We never know how long we have so those of us who still have a spouse beside us should enjoy every moment.
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@ramapo17 (30441)
• Melbourne, Florida
28 Mar 16
What a great picture. I have always loved going to Indian affairs when they would come to town in the Pocono Mountains of Pennsylvania. I would spend the entire day going around and watching them dance. I even bought moccasins and would try and dance with them.
What a happy life you had. You were so lucky to have shared such a true love. Not everyone gets that in a lifetime. You were so good to your husbands sister too.
When my dad was in WWII and stationed in Germany, he made friends with a major and his wife was an American Indian. After the war, they would come and visit us and I would have lots of friends there listening to her stories.
Thank you for bringing those memories up again.
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@Marcyaz (35316)
• United States
10 Apr 16
@ramapo17
This reminded me of when we lived in Oklahoma in a town called Shawnee, OK you can look it up online. We traveled to a lot of pow wows and met a lot of members of different Indian nations. It is very interesting to watch and if you have a shawl you could enter into Grand Entry (when the pow wow begins and you walk around in a circle some even dance)
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@ramapo17 (30441)
• Melbourne, Florida
10 Apr 16
@Marcyaz I loved going to so many pow wow's in the Shawnee Mountains of Pennsylvania. I use to watch them carefully when they did their dancing and when I went home I would do it all around the house. I even bought a nice pair of moccasins.
I have always been fascinated with the Indians.
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@Blondie2222 (28611)
• United States
27 Feb 16
What a nice picture of your husband. It is never easy when you lose someone so close to you like that, I feel it does get harder each year. Atleast you have the memories to last a life time and photos to look back on.
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@Marcyaz (35316)
• United States
28 Feb 16
@Blondie2222
thank you, I have my memories to look back on. It is not easy when you lose a loved one.
@ria1606roy (2797)
• Kolkata, India
28 Feb 16
So sorry to learn about your sister in law's passing. Some people we can't get over ever in our lives.....your husband sounds like a really great person and I am sure you miss him. He is looking out for you and will continue to do so forever. He's your guardian angel, so he would be sad too if you remain sad.....
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@Marcyaz (35316)
• United States
10 Apr 16
@ria1606roy
At this time of year I become very sad, miss him terribly and his sister too as we had become very close to each other.
@BelleStarr (61047)
• United States
26 Feb 16
I am so sad with you, what a handsome man he was and how much you must miss your times together. It seems trite to say you will be together someday, that doesn't help much with today!!
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@Marcyaz (35316)
• United States
26 Feb 16
@BelleStarr
Thank You I do feel we will be together someday again.
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