Fibromyalgia Never Rests

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Sometimes I find myself asking "What is wrong with me?" Just when I think I have fibromyalgia figured out, have it managed, under control, something happens which makes me ask that question. Early this morning I was in bed, went to turn over using both my hands to push myself up to turn over. I felt excruciating pain in both shoulders. I have had pain in my right shoulder for awhile but this was both shoulders. I sat in bed and moaned for a few minutes before I moved to the chaise in the living room where I slept until 7:30am. Hubby said he heard me moaning. Nice of him to show concern. Today I am feeling discomfort in both shoulders and my neck. I checked my massage therapist's schedule. She had one opening for Monday, nothing sooner, so I booked it. I was just there not too long ago. My insurance company covers $500/year which averages about one 60-minute massage every other month. I probably won't make it to the end of the year. I wish there was an exception of coverage for people with chronic pain. I cleaned up my drafted letter to my Member of Parliament and sent it off today. He is the only one I believe can get me my Disability Pension. I hope he does. My younger daughter is home from university and she had every intention of going back to work next week at the plant she worked at last summer, however they are not sure they are hiring students this year. Great! That's all we need is another summer of her not being able to find work. I am so tired all the time I can't find the energy to focus on working on my novel. I can find the time, just not the energy. That's frustrating too. I'm sick of fibromyalgia.