A sign from God.....?

@VivaLaDani13 I am a sign from God to you... Question: How does one decide who is atheist or agnostic or believer? How did you come to identify yourself as one of those? I am not trying to do any reverse psychology on you. It's a serious question. Let me see and understand what category I fall into myself. Don't just give me the definitions. I know those. lol Be more specific and detailed? Please don't touch this question if you aren't prepared for a long (really, really long) conversation. Come back when you have extra time.

@Daljinder Few things. 1: I love the way you write stories. BUT that has a pro and con. Obviously pros are because I like learning about you and you always have something interesting to talk about. Con....once again I am sitting by myself. Dad and brother are asleep lol And they will be getting up to go to work in a few hours so after I type this I am going to try to forget it. 2: That seriously gave me chills. I actually pictured everything in my head and I am getting chills again. 3: You really made me laugh when you said you were that stupid to challenge the bad spirit but I must admit, it made me feel proud of you. it shows how strong and brave you are. I am interested in to know more about her one day if there is anything else to be spoken about. But I also see where you are coming from. When I was with Aidan, I would tell him about the dreams, things I see and heard etc and he used to say that if I believed in the bad, that I would HAVE to believe in the good. Which to me back then was very difficult. I just assumed that everything was bad. Only because I also can't recall ever encountering a good spirit. I mean, not that I know of anyway. But that's doesn't mean that they are not around. Apparently my mum is around me a lot. It's just really frustrating when the ones you want to hear from don't do anything. Have to ask, you say she still is possessed. Is it ok to ask how you know that or even what has she done lately for this to be? It's ok if you don't want to say anymore I am just curious. I also can't help but wonder what would have happened. I mean, obviously I wouldn't want anything to happen but I just wonder what was going to happen. And the way she was wanting to give you all what you wanted, was that kind of like a bribe? She gave you want you guys wanted for something in return? And what sort of creepy voice? Did it still sound liker her? Sorry I am totally bombarding you with questions now! All good if you don't want to answer. Curiosity has really struck me right now. What did she do when your parents came back? She she start to act a bit normal? I do remember you saying about what was happening around your house. This is really giving me chills but I can't help but be all in Sherlock Holmes mode right now. The unknown annoys me...like a lot. I get frustrated. Not only because I don't know but because now I have started thinking about the stuff that happened to me. Like why do demons / spirits pick on specific people? Apparently because they are vulnerable and easier to mess with. Dad and I were talking about this the other night. I forget what started the conversation but I was talking about everything that was happening and how annoying it was that it mainly happened when I was alone. Which didn't help me in my case at all. Because when I tried to reach out I got people saying to me that I was "Spending too much time alone." or blaming what I was going through was because of my depression. Aidan did see a few things I did so I guess...at least I had a witness a few times. I really must tell you one day about the dreams I was having about this dude because I feel I can talk to you about it. I'm only scared because I'm worried I will jinx myself. I don't want him to pop back up in my nightmares anymore. Kinda thinking he wont but he still scares me. I've not really seen or heard much spirit wise in quite awhile now but sometimes I do have the feeling like I am being watched. The only things that have stuck with me is being in tune with random things like feeling someones emotion from a distance or having vague dreams that become true a day or two after. Or knowing what someone is going to say before they say it etc Stuff like that.

@VivaLaDani13 Don't be sorry. I actually like it when you go all out. To be honest, I don't like your clipped replies (not just to me). But I understand why you do it. It's fine. You know I grew up pretty much an athiest. I didn't believe in God. I prayed because it was expected. When I did started understanding, I questioned it. I have had a scientific bend to my mind. So, I analyzed everything scientifically. It's true I never disrespected my religion. I never denied my religion. It doesn't mean I don't question things. Personally, I feel to be good and honest inside is what makes you closer to God (if such a thing exists). No amount of praying and religion following can get you there if you aren't those things. Here is when the confusion comes Dani: When I was around 9 or 10 years old, my aunt (who we have cut ties with) was possessed by some evil spirit. She still is. At first, we had thought that it was some mental illness of some kind. we tried getting her help but to no avail. Then strange things happening like the water taps running by themselves. Strange creepy laughter in the bathroom. Hand pump running on their own. Utensils falling down. Blood splattering. I think I have mentioned this before. I had skirted past the reason before. She once tried strangling Mom. Attacked my another aunt. And much more. Once she got normal she got interested in finding out what happened and why happened. Consequently started on black magic. I still didn't believe any of this. I saw it with my own eyes but didn't believe in it. I felt that if I believed in it I would be defying my education. One day, all my family members had gone out. Only my aunt, her two kids, my brother and myself were at home. We kids were playing when suddenly in an eerie voice my aunt called all of us kids to her. Her kids went to her since she was their mother. My brother and I followed suit. Something didn't sit well with me. We sat and talked like nothing was wrong. But on instinctual level something was bothering me. All of a sudden, she became quiet serious and said "You all have pleased me greatly. I want to fulfill what your heart desire. I will give you all now. Would you want it?" Creepy serious voice. Of course my cousins and my brother happily said "Yes" She made sure that she separately had their agreement. When my turn came, I did not like the look in her eyes. (shivers) Warning bells were ringing loudly. I don't know what came over me but without showing the panic I was feeling I blurted "No" Then followed the scariest bone chilling laughter I have ever heard. Precisely the moment the door bell rung and my parents came back. I don't even want to imagine what would have happened if they hadn't been back then. It was then I started trusting and relying on my instincts. It was then I started believing the weird things that were happening. When I could believe in evil. I thought then it is possible that there is good too. If bad is devil then why not good is God? I am still unsure from where, how, what , when God came into being. But I do somewhat believe that there is something otherworldly that is good. That is what had kept my family alive still. Honestly Dani I am that stupid to openly challenge the bad spirit. I did that. several times. lol I think I am not quit a believer. Not an atheist. Not even agnostic. There is no category for me.

@Daljinder ..It can be done discretely without letting the parents who adopt them know. I wouldn't have liked it.

But it is natural for everyone to wonder and be curious about their roots. Their DNA and blood. It doesn't necessarily means that the parents who brought that child up lose their importance.

@vandana7 That would be lying to the parents who adopted them. And many a times such things get revealed or come out at the worst possible time and they hurt the worst.

@Orson_Kart Since the baby was a boy, I am assuming it was a case of unwed mother. I am saying boy because people still give preference to boy over girl. Since a married lady wouldn't abandon a boy, it is more than likely a young unwed mother.

I would too. Strange how things inclined and pieces all fell into place.

@Daljinder It was a great thing

@Daljinder Just beautiful

@Daljinder awww

It's a true story. It actually happened. Thanks!

@Daljinder Normal love between parents and children are the norm but that of adoptive parents and children are at another level, sort of out of the ordinary - siva

Divine intervention is right! Relationships build on love are far more surpassing than those of blood many times.

Wow! That's something to think about for sure. I remember this incident vaguely. So, I think that there was talks going around that some unwed young girl had left that baby there. If my memory serves me right. In that case, I don't think she will be back. If she did that would be an exception. A rare case. By now she might have married and had children. She wouldn't disrupt her family now digging up graves. Would she?

I agree with you. It can happen. And yeah no debates on religion from my side too. lol Religion is a complicated matter. It stumps me.

Yeah! Without knowing the whole story it's not fair. But good did come out of a bad situation. And that's good.