Most Disturbing Dream

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A couple of nights ago I had a most disturbing dream. My late husband’s last name was Neilands and in my dream, he apparently had a company named Neilands. I got a job there to answer the phones. I was told to pick up the phone and say Neilands and then take a message. So when the phone rang and I clearly heard it in my dream I picked it up and said Neilands. Then someone would start speaking in Russian and I would explain in English that Martin Neilands was not available and could I take a message and he would get back to them. I did not know if the person on the other end understood what I said. However, this sequence repeated many times and I kept on answering and saying Neilands. When I woke up I thought to myself how odd what could this mean? I do not have to be reminded of what my husband’s first and last name was. Surely up above he understands I still love him and miss him terribly. This dream has been most disturbing to me and I cannot figure it out. I can say that the job situation in Latvia gives truth to this dream that companies which deal with international companies usually have employees who speak three languages Latvian, Russian, and English. In my case, I never learned Russian. What do you all think of this? The photo is of me and Martin on a trip in 1998 to the U.S. We are in a bar in Salem, Massachusetts.