Do you think it's funny to joke about one's past or current addiction? Part 1

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The other day I mentioned in my post that I'm feeling pretty hostile towards some of my family members and that I would explain why later on. I will explain a little bit about why I'm angry with my Aunty. As much as I love her, she can often make me feel awful! I've put up with quite a lot from her and other family members but I will just speak about her right now. I won't speak about all she has said or done right now. But I will talk about her in regards to the drinking problems I had. Many years ago, I had a phase ( about 3 months ) of drinking every single day. No matter what I had going that day and no matter what time, I'd drink. Even going to work a bit tipsy. And I'd do it alone without anyone knowing about it. I was doing it due to a lot going on in my life. Trying to deal with my mum's death, past family traumas, but I think most of it was because I had a person in my life who was making me miserable. Someone who was abusive towards me. Mainly mental abuse but there was some physical. I also kept that secret while it was happening and a couple years after I finally got away from him. So I drank. I wasted so much money and I was sick every now and then. So it wasn't for fun. It was to feel some type of happy emotion since being sober was full of sadness and pain. Being drunk made me happy but sometimes it would switch to feeling sad and a tad suicidal. My dad eventually found out. He found a lot of bottles ( empty and full bottles ) hidden in my closet or laying around my room. I am now very open about it with him. Some time after that I still drank but not every day. Almost every time my Aunty and I went out or if family got together, I'd drink. I do it every Christmas day too when I'm with them. Over time my drinking became less and less but something was and is still there inside me. Just every now and then I really want a drink to feel tipsy. Anyway my Aunty, almost every single time would make fun of me calling me an alcoholic. In a "fun, teasing" sort of way to which I've never even cracked a smile. Never laughed once. One day, my Aunty and I went to the movies and then shopping. She put her arm around me and said "Your father told me you really did have a drinking problem. If I had known that I never would have made fun of you." I felt so happy that she understood and wouldn't do it again. But the very next day....when my family and I got together for breakfast my Aunty said "I know you really had a problem but I'm going to make fun of you anyway." I will never forget that. How low she made me feel. To mock me about the darkest times in my life. It's not just about a "drink." Those "drinks" were a band aid. To cover up the past, worries and issues that I didn't know how to handle otherwise. I will leave this one here right now and make a part 2. Would love to know your opinion about this so far as well as the question in the title. Thank you for reading.